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Wave 2

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

On the 7th, I start my second go around with Alia Thalbit's 90 day dance party.

It doesn't seem like a huge deal: dance 20 minutes a day for 90 days. But it's a HUGE deal: 20 minutes a day....for 90 days!

More than that: this is where it all started. I was resigned to the idea that I would be this size for the rest of my life. And then after 30 days, not only had my dancing improved, so had my cardio. After 60 days I had lost 10 pounds without making any other changes. At that point I started watching what I put in my face. By the time my 90 days was over, I was very focused on healthy eating, but I wasn't consistently active anymore.

So here it comes: the second wave: a commitment to be active every day while eating healthy every day. This could mean a big change for me.

I wonder: am I ready? I mean's what everyone wants right? Get healthier...get THINNER. But I have ALWAYS been the big girl, I don't know if I know how to be anything else. The creeps weed themselves out because they discount me because of my size. How will I know who they are now? The decisions I make in my life now are ethical and equitable. What if my world changes so much I can't find my own morality anymore? It's scary. I mean it's exciting and amazing and ....scary!
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    When you value yourself enough to make a change - you will also learn to know others who value you. You don't need size to distance yourself - not at all. Yes - change is a big leap - and all those surprises you will find along the way. You are ready - and you have done an awesome job. Just keep challenging yourself and allow yourself to feel strong and beautiful - because you deserve to - and because it is true.

    Weight loss alone is just a number on a scale - but learning to live healthier allows you to truly be ALIVE and strong. Strive to do what is best for you - I know you can do it!

    1848 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/26/2013 11:07:33 PM
    I have also been heavy all my life and it is scary to think that losing it would make you a different person...but that person is with you always. You can change the outside and make the inside better but you will still be you. We are all one of a kind, special people. Basically we take one day at a time and one step at a time...then we plunge into life with a better outlook. Keep up the positive and the negative will fade away. You can do this. You sound like you are having fun.
    If you want to check out our small team called out of the box, we are a make it together kind of team. If you like go to my page and click on the icon.
    Whatever you decide keep going and good luck on your journey.
    1852 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    I know all about being afraid of being thin. I know crazy, right.....but there it is......
    I am still not sure about my fear but I am going to do it anyway! You can do this!
    1868 days ago
    Good luck with your program!
    1868 days ago
    Good luck in your second wave! emoticon
    1868 days ago
    I wish I could find the quote but basically it says, don't worry about losing weight. Worry about eating healthy and getting fit. The weight loss will follow.

    You seem to be living breathing proof of that.

    1868 days ago
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