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Overcoming Trials, Tension, and Temptations

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Today MAY have been the worst day ever.

As my status speaks, it may get worse as the week goes on.

Long story short: My school (a private Christan school) is unhappy with my "lack of growth" and feel that my lifestyle does not suggest that I care about being a Christian (what?). I have been suspended through the end of the week pending prayers and discussion and another meeting to decide if and how moving forward is happening.

Surprisingly, I didn't cry through any of this today. I was more nauseous than anything. Granted, I know that I am for sure NOT the perfect Christian nor do I claim to be. As far as I can tell, a sin is a sin is a sin. My sin is no greater than yours, and neither is yours greater than mine. So why is the one that I am presented with punishable?

Just because it is a tangible sin as opposed to someone who is slothful, envious, covetous, does not make it less of a sin to God, am I correct?

Anyway... rant over...

I am now at their mercy and it sucks. Big time.

I thought about when I got dinner, getting a small (er) Ben&Jerry's and just inhaling it. But, instead I found this awesome packet (kind of gross actually when I ate it... not as good as anticipated) of natural hazelnut and peanut butter spread (like nutella, only all natural) and spread it on graham crackers to satisfy my sweet tooth.

I need to get my workout in, and just spend my time doing... something to distract from all of this that is going on.

In the end, I need to do what I need to do. I want to come to my Christian walk on MY terms, and I can't be forced to do it on someone else's terms. That just isn't how this all works.


Quote of the Day:
If it doesn't CHALLENGE you, it doesn't CHANGE you.
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CLRWILLIAMS25 2/12/2013 1:06PM

    So sorry you are dealing with this! I saw your status update and realized I'd missed this explanation on your blog. Although I don't know you in "real life," you seem to set a positive example for others with your commitment to yourself and to your health. I hope you can continue to keep a positive attitude. They say everything happens for a reason (although it's not fun when it's something like this). Maybe this just means there is a better fit for you elsewhere and you're now free to find it.
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SLIMMERKIWI 2/10/2013 10:39PM

    I really think that you former school needs to take a good hard look at it's own behavior. If your private life doesn't impinge on your professional life, then really, it is none of the school's business. What they are showing is bias (o.k. they are allowed to with religion in THEIR school) but the bias has turned into trying to control every aspect of their staffs' lives. NOT good! More a "CULT" attitude!


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