Tuesday, February 05, 2013
Today MAY have been the worst day ever.
As my status speaks, it may get worse as the week goes on.
Long story short: My school (a private Christan school) is unhappy with my "lack of growth" and feel that my lifestyle does not suggest that I care about being a Christian (what?). I have been suspended through the end of the week pending prayers and discussion and another meeting to decide if and how moving forward is happening.
Surprisingly, I didn't cry through any of this today. I was more nauseous than anything. Granted, I know that I am for sure NOT the perfect Christian nor do I claim to be. As far as I can tell, a sin is a sin is a sin. My sin is no greater than yours, and neither is yours greater than mine. So why is the one that I am presented with punishable?
Just because it is a tangible sin as opposed to someone who is slothful, envious, covetous, does not make it less of a sin to God, am I correct?
Anyway... rant over...
I am now at their mercy and it sucks. Big time.
I thought about when I got dinner, getting a small (er) Ben&Jerry's and just inhaling it. But, instead I found this awesome packet (kind of gross actually when I ate it... not as good as anticipated) of natural hazelnut and peanut butter spread (like nutella, only all natural) and spread it on graham crackers to satisfy my sweet tooth.
I need to get my workout in, and just spend my time doing... something to distract from all of this that is going on.
In the end, I need to do what I need to do. I want to come to my Christian walk on MY terms, and I can't be forced to do it on someone else's terms. That just isn't how this all works.
Quote of the Day:
If it doesn't CHALLENGE you, it doesn't CHANGE you.