Tuesday, February 05, 2013
Today is only the second day in the last 3 weeks that I have gone out. I decided to get my act together and do something today. So after a nice shower, we did a very small grocery shopping and then went to the Chinese buffet. As much as I wanted to go as I have not been eating, that is how much I now regret going. I ate too much. My head wanted more than my stomach could stand but it wouldn't stop me. What is wrong with me!!!!! Why can't I stop. At least now I know when I am full, something that never happened to me before. But being full doesn't stop my eating. I kept going from one thing to another, almost not even tasting what I was eating only knowing that something was driving me to do it.
So now with my tummy ache and regrets about tomorrow, I need water too. The salt is overwhelming and my thirst is so great. Back to suffering, when am I going to learn????