Tuesday, February 05, 2013
Have I mentioned this year how much I hate January and February? Every year, I try not to. I try to start new things and get excited about them, because that's the only way I've ever found to not hate it. Last year wasn't too bad, since I embarked on the journey to become a doula. This year, though, this year has sucked.
After listing all of what's happened since my last post, I chose to delete it. Because you know what? It really is an awful list. And I don't want my blog to be full of awful energy. I want my blog here to be positive! Light! Hopeful! Full of good things. :)
If nothing else, I know life will be better in about five weeks. It always is. My mood lightens. My spring fever/restlessness dissipates. Life feels like it can move forward again.
But really, life is better already! We decided several months ago that we were going to get a zoo pass and take the toddler as often as we could. I don't get out enough. Not getting out of the house is a HUGE contributor to my depression. We finally got the pass last week, and we've gone three times. The improvement I feel is already enormous. That's my favorite thing about living in the desert so far - it's only February, but it's already 70 degrees or more every day. (Yes, after April everything is going to get too hot to stand, but I'm ignoring that knowledge right now.) The sun is *intense.* Like Colorado. The sun and I have a love/hate relationship. My skin is prone to burning, but I have to get a lot of it to sustain my vitamin D levels (and no matter what they say, for me, there is no substitute for sun-grown vitamin D for emotional well-being). I can't stand its heat, especially directly, but I love being outdoors. I always forget just how much I love it until I'm outside, enjoying a breeze and birdsong and the smell of trees and grass and soil and whatever makes the area unique. There is no substitute for nature for me, either. :)
Getting out is good. Getting outside is even better!
So that is my exercise plan for now. Go to the zoo at least three times a week. We plan to intersperse that with trips to the outdoor malls, maybe the aquarium (my husband's a fan), maybe the Children's Museum. Might as well take advantage of my husband's abundant time (since he has yet to find a new job) while he has it, right? :D
My hips are really feeling these two zoo days in a row, though, so I think I'm also going to add in some stationary biking. The in-laws have one gathering dust in the corner. It needs batteries. They finally bought batteries so we could use it (given that we have no money of our own), so might as well take advantage of that, too! I have dance lessons and aerobics classes I'm desperate to try, but my body is nowhere near strong enough or healed enough from sprains to handle them yet. YET.
My goal for the next two weeks (or maybe the rest of the month - I'm trying to work on not rushing myself through steps to reaching my goals) is to strengthen my lower body and cardiovascular system so that I can start taking classes. That, and prioritizing my time. I waste WAY too much of it, and I know I'm capable of using it well. I know I can be one of those women who is ambitious, productive, and happy - I just need to build a stronger foundation! :)
May you all grow stronger this month, too!