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personal thoughts today

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

I read other spark blogs to help me stay focused on my journey to a healthy life style....
I read one today from a women who wonders when she will notice her weight loss, she has lost 50 pounds but doesn't see it....
I know how she feels, I wish I could put my feelings in to words.....I dont' always express myself as much as I would like too....I know how she feels, even to this day I still can feel like that 347 pound women....I still wonder at times who jeans are in the dryer, I hold up my size 10 jeans and say, really your big but fits in there....lol and yes I have to reply to myself....my but does fit in there...
I still worry at times that the weight will find me, so I play a game with myself to never sit too long, and keep moving so it can;t find me.....I tend to be silly a lot....

my next personal thought today, I need to let myself and others know I not only made wise foods choices at the last 2 parties we went too, but i had a good time, I never use to go to parties because I always felt like the fattest person there...I thought people where staring at me, wonder why or how I got so big and when would I stop.....
Sunday it was nice to be able to drive home and be proud of myself, to feel good about my self and that not only did I eat healthy but I had a good time....I am still quiet at parties, looseing weight did not turn me in to a wild and crazy girl.....but what it did do was give me self respect, I did good, I am living the life I use to dream about....

Loosing weight doesn't make your whole life a bed of roses or a bowl of cherries, but for me I have learned to respect myself as the caring loving person I always was...now not only do I love everyone around me, I love myself as well.....


have a healthy week
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DUSTYPRAIRIE 2/6/2013 3:07PM

    I have those kind of "silly" thoughts and play games, too. I think it's a survival skill.

Good on you at the parties. You'll be more comfortable as time goes on. New experiences, and going to parties as a new person, can be intimidating. You're so gutsy moving forward. Our journey doesn't end at being goal weight.

I mentioned to Pixie earlier that I'm glad the process is slow. It gives us time to adapt, feel our feelings, and go to the next step.

(((hugs)))

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BARBARAROSE54 2/6/2013 11:49AM

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-BENI- 2/6/2013 10:22AM

    What a beautiful blog.
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NASFKAB 2/6/2013 5:27AM

  great loved it thanks

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 2/5/2013 11:55PM

    Good thoughts!

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MICKEYH 2/5/2013 10:09PM

    Great blog !! Thanks for sharing. I will take your words to my heart. Never forget about hardship, Never forget about self respect and loving myself.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 2/5/2013 9:57PM

    I think we all to some degree battle those feelings. You look great and not that there is anything wrong with a 10 but you look smaller. emoticon

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WARMSPRINGDAY 2/5/2013 9:49PM

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LOLAJO54 2/5/2013 4:33PM

    that is the key -loving yourself ---respecting yourself

enjoy those parties Kitt

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KMICHA 2/5/2013 3:00PM

    emoticon blog Kitt. I'm sure it will be a great encouragement to many! You have come a long way on your journey. I'm sure you are shocked at times when you see yourself in the mirror . . . is that REALLY ME!!! emoticon

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KATHYJO56 2/5/2013 2:28PM

    Kitt, Since I totally understand why are you saying, I am just going to send you emoticon

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