Tuesday, February 05, 2013
Good Afternoon Spark Friends!
I'm finally feeling almost 100% after feeling so bad last week with a respiratory bug and being on my first week of Metformin. This got me to thinking about how I've been really focused on "Taking Care of Self" over the last 6 weeks or so. In fact last year my word for the year was "Self-Care". I'm in Al-Anon and just like most people who come into Al-Anon; I was very good at taking care of other people. My focus was always on other people and rarely on myself.
On the other hand I would have told you that one of the blessings from coming from a childhood in which no one took care of me was that I learned how to take care of myself. Itís only been in the last 10 years or so that I realized this wasnít true either. I didnít have nurturing parents to teach me how to take care of myself in a healthy way. Therefore, since I was so hungry as a kid; I ate whatever I wanted as an adult. Since I was so poor as a child; I spent irresponsibly and ran credit cards up. Since I had to work from before sun up until bed time; I have a tendency to want to play all the time when I get home. You get the idea. I didnít learn balance.
Thankfully, I realized about 10 years ago that I was abusing credit cards and my hubby and I stopped using them unless it was a true emergency. We paid them off and I no longer compulsively shop irresponsibly. We made a budget and we save money in a savings account. I still struggle with the food at times but Iím much better at not playing all the time when I come home. It always amazes me when I hear someone share that they have trouble allowing themselves to take a nap or spend time just doing nothing as a way of taking care of them selves because I am really good at sitting still and just "being".
I am learning how to face my fears. My world is limited in direct proportion to my willingness to face my fears. I used to be so afraid to speak up for myself because I was worried the person wouldn't like me if I spoke up. Speaking up for myself and letting someone know I will not be disrespected is a way of taking care of myself though. Being willing to tell someone no instead of yes all the time is a way in which I take care of myself. Setting time aside each day to pray and meditate is important for my spiritual growth. Taking my Metformin, exercising and eating in moderation is a way I take care of myself today. Surrounding myself with people who love and support me as well as giving the same back to others is a way I take care of myself.
I've just had my favorite lunch....Weight Watcher's Pot Roast dinner and a Cherry Mixed Fruit up in it's own juice. I also enjoyed a cup of hot decaf tea with chia seeds and a nice glass of water. All of that and only 2 carb choices. Well, lunch time is over and it's time to get back to work. Play time will come later.
I hope all of you are having a wonderful afternoon! Linda