So I keep re-reading yesterdays blog and all your support and I'm really trying to turn myself around. Being so negative is not beneficial (duh, right?). I also re-read the SparkPeople article, which couldn't have come at a better time, on "cheat days" and how much they affect your goals. Again, everything in moderation. Going significantly over in calories WILL derail efforts. Having an indulgent day here and there moderately going over calories is fine; and in my opinion, important and necessary to prevent the "diet" feeling. I know, I know, Spark talks about this. This isn't a revelation. I just need to remind myself now and then. There will be consequences to weeks of not caring and if you want to prevent those consequences, get yourself back on track sooner than later.

When I was younger I got down on myself often, feeling like I was constantly screwing up and having to dust myself off...now that I'm older and more responsible, this same cycle and feelings have translated to my eating and exercise habits and it brings back a lot of those feelings of not being good enough. But, life is a process of self improvement; I managed to move on from my other behaviors, I hopefully will do the same here.

And so...yesterday was a good day. I'm trying to make today the same. Trying to get myself back on track, I'm trying to "detox" all the carbs I've consumed over the past few weeks and yesterday was a successful low carb day. Even when I've been on track and losing, my carbs are always higher than the 50% or less than I strive for, and yesterday I ended up around 33/33/33 for everything, yay! And I worked out doing a video I once found challenging and found it much easier and I wasn't in my target zone enough for my liking.

Finally, I thought I'd share my dinner because it was what I like to call "faux fancy" or really easy 5 ingredients but sounds gourmet. I had fig & asiago stuffed pork. Now, I'm not a huge pork fan because I prefer to eat leaner, healthier meats and fish, but the BF requests more "man" meats on occasion. Anyways, the recipe was easy and simple:
thin cut the pork tenderloins (flatten if necessary) and sprinkle with cheese (I used a low fat asiago blend) and diced figs (or I suppose you could use raisins or craisins) roll the pork up (secure with twine or tooth picks), add a little salt and pepper, then bake for 15-20 min. Glaze on top with jelly, we used pepper jelly for a little kick and I served it with a side steamed green beans. Yum!