Tuesday, February 05, 2013
It is time to check in on my goals. I feel prepared to assess where I am, discern what I need to continue to do, and find out how I can make things easier for myself (i.e. how I can get out of my own way!).
My original goals were to meditate daily, exercise 4 times a week, and eat and track all my food. I expected this to lead to a 1-2 lb per week weight loss. Easy, right?
No! I have not met these goals. I asked myself to change A LOT right away. I changed some things, the most important being my expectations that I would change EVERYTHING RIGHT AWAY! This is about accountability, so here is what I did do:
I tracked all my food for 33 days.
I ate within my calorie range for 30 days.
While healthy (no flu) I exercised 3 - 4 times per week.
I meditated on some days.
I lost 3 lbs in 1 month.
Despite the fact that I did not meet my original goals, I am very happy with the changes I have made in my life. I am happy that I have committed to changing my lifestyle and improving my health and happiness. I am happy that I am forming healthy, supportive relationships as part of my lifestyle change. When I joined, I was very focused on health. I find that my focus has broadened to include health as part of a happy life. I don't want to be thin and miserable. Self-punishment is not one of my goals!
I also set a goal to be able to wear a size 10 (one size smaller than my starting size) by my next vacation, March 25th (close to the first day of Spring). Now, I don't know if this is realistic. I have decided to change this goal. Instead of measuring my progress my sizes or weight, I want to measure my progress by my actions.
My new goals are focussed on cultivating happiness and peace in my life and body:
1. Say and write down one positive thing about myself every day.
2. Feel and express gratitude once every day.
3. Continue to track and eat healthy foods within my caloric range.
4. Continue to honor my own process by catching my negative self-talk and adding compassion to this conversation.
5. Exercise 3-4 times each week.
6. Drink 8 glasses of water every day.
When I go on vacation I want to continue these practices with the help of my friend and husband. This will be a gift I can give to myself during that vacation, rather than using my size to either reward or punish myself. I will ask for the help that I need so I can feel connected to and loved by the people in my life.
I also plan to take my body measurements once a month to track my physical progress. I want to hold myself accountable for my physical health. Here are some things I have done to help myself:
I scheduled my first PAP in 4 years. (I am terrified of PAPs).
I scheduled a physical for the first time in a year.
I spent a lot of time on the phone with my new health insurance to ensure that my coverage is in place and ready to go.
Normally I wouldn't connect these kind of actions to my weight loss, but showing my body respect by providing medical care is very important. I am counting these!
Okay. This is a different way to approach my health. But, I want to do this. I want to be happy. I'm ready for the next 5 weeks!
P.S. I turn 39 soon. Wow! Its so wonderful to be on track at age 39. It is never too late to learn to love myself or my body. It is never too late to learn to be happy!