Tuesday, February 05, 2013
I wish I had normal problems! Instead of horrible back pain and other serious health issues. Instead of HUGE $$ issues. Instead of marriage issues.
Right now I am waiting on a call from my daughter to see if my 3 yr old GS has to be admitted to the hospital from this horrible flu going around that ALL of my grand-kids have had but the poor little one has the worst. :(
Yesterday while on the phone with her trying to support her MY husband is in the back ground telling me I am crazy & no wonder my ex husband beat me! Mean while I am talking to her and trying to act like everything is okay as she is super stressed out as of all her kids and herself being so sick.
I just want normal problems........ sigh
I want to be able to come here and post to my teams like a normal person. Instead when he does garbage like this it "freezes" me up inside and it's all I can do to do the things I must do to keep our world going.
I want to be free to "worry" (and pray) about my grand kids and other things in life instead of hearing his words rolling around in my mind.
It will take me days (again!) to get past this last verbal attack and be able to move forward past it.
He knows if GS has to be admitted I will need to go & stay with other GK's so my daughter can stay at hospital with the little one & that had him all worked up and acting nasty to me.
I want to be able to function & live like a normal person!
PS: prayers for the little guy appreciated.