Just catching up
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
The comfort of a blanket, a good book and my couch has been more appealing to me than a regular exercise routine. The empty spot left by losing someone close is slowly healing. I’m trying not to feel weird about it and not to force it; I think of him often and remember all the endless ways he kept me company. He was my dog and since I blogged about it last time, I won’t go into detail here but this type of grief has been something new to me. It’s about missing his presence; since it was just me and him for so long, I still look for him and want to do routine things like needing to get home to let him out…but then I remember. I find myself seeking comfort in things that are familiar to me; both people and things that I don’t have to put any effort into. Thankfully, I have not turned to food for that comfort I seek.
Alone time is something I’m used to; I have been embracing my introverted self and have some books in mind to help me. I’m curious how do introverted people date? The guy I was seeing, well…I ended it. He was nice and normal and handsome…but needy. I am independent and used to doing for myself…bad combination for a needy guy. And, he didn’t understand my need for space/time alone…which led me to the recognition of my introversion and how it affects my dating life…or lack of. I like men, I like to date but I am in no way, shape or form hunting for a husband. I am more than okay being single. But back to the introverted thing…I am not the most social person in the room but if I come across someone where we click and I notice we have things in common, it’s easy for me to speak with them and get to know them. It’s the initial part of conversation I dread…small talk is not my specialty. I even looked into starting up a Spark Team for introverts to bring like minded people together BUT there’s no way I have the time & energy to devote to something like that so I put that idea away. Maybe another time though.
I have not given up on being active, I do random workout DVD’s a couple of times a week, last week I went running and thought ‘that felt good, I need to do that again’ so it’s not like I’m a complete lazy bum. I weed-eated yesterday so my arms feel as if they weigh 100 pounds each today-no workout today or tomorrow. I’ll go home and spray the yard with weed-b-gone this evening…my grass sure isn’t growing but those darned weeds are ridiculous! I have motivation to get in tip-top shape and to increase my workouts. I am planning on two mud runs this year and I was invited to hike the Grand Canyon in June!!! We are going from the North rim to the South rim, or vice versa. That’s a little overwhelming but I’ve got time to plan it out so I shouldn’t have to rush anything. I don’t have any hiking gear at all so I’m comparing buying to renting equipment. If I rent it twice, would it be more economical to have bought it instead? I’m guessing there will be a mix of bought, borrowed and rented equipment.
So that’s my spiel…what’s been going on with me. Thanks for reading and have a great week!