Tuesday, February 05, 2013
The comfort of a blanket, a good book and my couch has been more appealing to me than a regular exercise routine. The empty spot left by losing someone close is slowly healing. Iím trying not to feel weird about it and not to force it; I think of him often and remember all the endless ways he kept me company. He was my dog and since I blogged about it last time, I wonít go into detail here but this type of grief has been something new to me. Itís about missing his presence; since it was just me and him for so long, I still look for him and want to do routine things like needing to get home to let him outÖbut then I remember. I find myself seeking comfort in things that are familiar to me; both people and things that I donít have to put any effort into. Thankfully, I have not turned to food for that comfort I seek.
Alone time is something Iím used to; I have been embracing my introverted self and have some books in mind to help me. Iím curious how do introverted people date? The guy I was seeing, wellÖI ended it. He was nice and normal and handsomeÖbut needy. I am independent and used to doing for myselfÖbad combination for a needy guy. And, he didnít understand my need for space/time aloneÖwhich led me to the recognition of my introversion and how it affects my dating lifeÖor lack of. I like men, I like to date but I am in no way, shape or form hunting for a husband. I am more than okay being single. But back to the introverted thingÖI am not the most social person in the room but if I come across someone where we click and I notice we have things in common, itís easy for me to speak with them and get to know them. Itís the initial part of conversation I dreadÖsmall talk is not my specialty. I even looked into starting up a Spark Team for introverts to bring like minded people together BUT thereís no way I have the time & energy to devote to something like that so I put that idea away. Maybe another time though.
I have not given up on being active, I do random workout DVDís a couple of times a week, last week I went running and thought Ďthat felt good, I need to do that againí so itís not like Iím a complete lazy bum. I weed-eated yesterday so my arms feel as if they weigh 100 pounds each today-no workout today or tomorrow. Iíll go home and spray the yard with weed-b-gone this eveningÖmy grass sure isnít growing but those darned weeds are ridiculous! I have motivation to get in tip-top shape and to increase my workouts. I am planning on two mud runs this year and I was invited to hike the Grand Canyon in June!!! We are going from the North rim to the South rim, or vice versa. Thatís a little overwhelming but Iíve got time to plan it out so I shouldnít have to rush anything. I donít have any hiking gear at all so Iím comparing buying to renting equipment. If I rent it twice, would it be more economical to have bought it instead? Iím guessing there will be a mix of bought, borrowed and rented equipment.
So thatís my spielÖwhatís been going on with me. Thanks for reading and have a great week!