Tuesday, February 05, 2013
I need to update my page with a blog preparing me for the 5% Winter Challenge. But, I'm not ready. I am afraid it will just be a blog of whining. I need to get that out of the way first and then think hard about what I want to accomplish.
I am bothered that I have worked so hard and it doesn't take much to derail all the efforts.
I have strained my wrist, (almost better now) and got some kind of food poisoning, (again, better now).
I can't stop eating, it's my closet eating. When no one is around.
I can say to someone one moment exactly what needs to be done to become fit, healthy and happy and then walk away and put a whole candy bar in my mouth. How hypocritical.
Why do we sabotage our hard work?
I see now that I keep secretly thinking that once I lose all the weight I need to, I can go back to the way I used to be. Eat what I used to, etc Ha!
I need to take that "lifestyle change" to mean more that the way I have been treating it.
I have tried "baby steps", I need to move on to "giant steps".
My life needs to change. Big Time.
I can't wait till the 5% challenge to start. No, I mean I cannot wait that long to start. I need to go on record with my 5% challenge goals but I need to start NOW!.
As I am writing this, I feel better already. I am on my way to workout and I know that will feel even better.
I am going on record that I will visit SP daily and blog daily and become more accountable.
I need to do this.