Tuesday, February 05, 2013
There is nothing worse than feeling like a failure. I feel this way too often. In my classes, I feel as though I do not meet the needs of my students. One particular student always tests my patience and does not understand the meaning of silence is golden. When I lose my cool, I am instantly filled with regret and feelings of failure, even though the rest of my day might have had victories.
The same goes with my eating and exercise plans. Yesterday I exercised with my daughter and had a great time doing it. But I allowed one television show to move me to eat what they were eating. Crazy! Once I finished it, I was filled with guilt and feelings of failure. Am I the only one out there that goes through this roller coaster ride?
Well, there was a man named Simon Peter. He loved Jesus and promised to stay with Him. He said that he would die for Jesus. But when the time came for him to stand up and tell others of his association with Jesus, he denied even knowing Jesus. In fact, he did so three times. And the worst part was that Jesus told him that this would happen. Did Peter feel guilty and look upon himself as a failure? Of course he did.
The story has a happy ending because when Jesus rose from the dead, he went to Peter and showed him mercy. In fact, he made Peter breakfast and asked him THREE times if he loved HIM. There is great significance in this number three. Peter denied him three times and Jesus made Peter say to himself that he loved Jesus three times. One declaration for each denial. He found forgiveness from Jesus and himself which is amazing and awesome. Jesus reinstated Peter through forgiveness and grace.
So, I must do the same. With each slip, and each detour, find the time to accept what I did as wrong and then declare that I do not have to stay that way. For me it will take many baby steps to reach my final destination, but each step is so important to my overall health and well-being. The only way I can accomplish my goals is if I daily tell myself that I love me and will feed my soul with God, nourish my stomach with healthy food, and burn the fat through activity. Forgive and move on. Reinstate my purpose to reach my destiny.