Life has been crazy
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
In January my boyfriend and I had to move back to Pennsylvania from California. I will never drive such a horribly long distance again. My sister and her boyfriend drove out with a trailer to get us and our stuff. That was a horrible trip. If there weren't laws against it I probably would have murdered my sister. She's good in small doses. But if you're around her for long periods of time you'd feel the same way. By the time we reached Pennsylvania she had me so convinced that our dad and step mom hated me that I was too anxious and upset to even want to go to their house. I was a hysterical mess the last few hours of the drive because I was so worried even though when I asked them they said they didn't hate me. Logically it didn't make any sense. Why would they pay so much money to move me back if they hated me.. She was just very convincing and I was lacking sleep and reasoning. So we're living at my dads house after the horrible ordeal.
We are here for 2 weeks and suddenly my dad and step mom are splitting up... We were just feeling settled and comfortable. They had been together since I was 12 or so.. So about 15 years. My dad's been kinda going crazy lately. He hasn't been really employed in a few years ever since he got laid off. I think it's been 3 or 4 years. He's pretty much just been in the house for the past few years. All alone and nowadays he's been getting panic attacks from going into stores and any social gathering.
So yeah, with their splitting up we are helping out to get the house ready for them to sell. My dad has ben applying for tons of jobs. My sister and her boyfriend are moving to her boyfriends parents house. His parents are planning to put a down payment on a trailer and get a mortgage for them in the next few months. Me, my dad and my boyfriends are probably going to rent an apartment until we can afford to move into a house.
On a plus side my boyfriend starts work in 8 hours... He hasn't had a job in like 2 years. Our old assistant manager at the gas station we worked at a few years ago became manager at a Family Dollar and said she'd hire him as her assistant when he moved back. Over the next few months he's going to save and hopefully buy a second car. Once we have a second car I'll start working on finding a job... Until then I'm helping my dad around the house to get the place sell-able and just hanging out with him and talking to him in general. Over the past two years he's pretty much been lonely. My step mom would be at work all day(understandably) and my sister and step sister would just hang out in their rooms all day. So he'd be alone most of the time, I think that's a big part of his anxiety problems. Lack of human interaction. So I've been trying to spend as much time with him as possible.
Okies.. This post is long enough. To sum up.. I just moved here and in a month or so I'm moving again. I used to enjoy moving. But I'm tired of it now.