Tuesday, February 05, 2013
This has been quite a day.
I started out with my ortho. As I knew, my hip is doing well and is right on track in the healing process. Then, he examined my knee and we did a lot of painful x-rays. they showed "no problems" with my prosthesis nor no extra fluid on my knee. He believes that I need to work on strengthening my quads. I totally disagree with that because until I had my hip replacement on December 17, I was doing daily strengthening exercises for my knees, hip and lower back. I got them from my physical therapist to do in the pool and we met from time to time when I needed to ramp things up. I am back to day one because between my new hip and the natural restrictions in movement and whatever is going on in my knee--I cannot do any exercise I was doing faithfully in December. I CAN go back to what I did when I began and I have been trying to wiggle around and move anything up a level here or there and except for being able to use a bigger noodle, I am able to do 2 sets of the early exercises I learned over 3 years ago. I am frustrated, but if I have to start there, so be it. I CAN AND I WILL EXERCISE EVERY DAY.
I haven't eaten like usual today--I have eaten my fruits but neglected protein and instead munched a small handful of potato chips that shouldn't even be here and a half dozen chocolate covered caramels that were left from party treats. I CAN EAT HEALTHY AND WILL DO SO WITH MY VERY NEXT MEAL.
I went for the meeting at my son's school and it ended up being a long and futile activity that I just ended with my parting comments. I missed my PT today because the meeting was 2.5 hours long. I have tried to make them understand that Micah has a diagnosis of Asperger's, AD/HD, and Depression and that it is critical that his assignments match his needs. It is happening that way in every class but English and that teacher is single-handedly destroying his self-concept and his desire to work hard and succeed. He is getting more written work to do that Marissa who is taking college level/ credit English and I think that is odd, given that he has moved out of special education from last year and is in a transitional class. I am not going to go away on this--it is my job to advocate for Micah. I WILL MEET THE GOAL OF BEING THE BEST PARENT THAT I CAN BE. I will get this fixed and that is that.
I am returning to work tomorrow. I called and spoke with the principal today and I will try my best to not be overwhelmed or frustrated tomorrow. I expect to have too much to do and not to know quite where to start. I expect that I will need non-student time to get a lot of things done and updated. I am not going to work a lot of long hours or stay until unreasonable hours because the pool needs me. I WILL TAKE THINGS IN STRIDE WITH PATIENCE AND A SMILE ON MY FACE FOR EACH LITTLE CHILD I WORK WITH.
I had to get all excited to get the fact through to my family that I won't be here tomorrow and that I am going back to work. It was ridiculous that I had to ask for help with some mundane things, but I am going to get what I need. My family has functioned well with me working for a long time--27 plus years--and this will pass. I WILL REESTABLISH HEALTHY ROUTINES FOR MY FAMILY.
6 weeks off of work has been a lot, but not a lifetime. I haven't been working since before Christmas so my return to work is my new year. I may be 5 weeks behind everyone else, but I am good, clever, hard-working and smart. I CAN DO THIS AND I WILL. COUNT ON IT.
When I get on the scale this week, it will not show a heavier number than last week. I CAN DO THIS TOO.
After over 3 years at Spark People and losing 140 plus pounds, I know how to do what I need. I am capable and when I am determined, nobody and nothing--not even my wonky body--can stop me!!
I CAN DO THIS--Feel free to watch and to join me because success is around EVERY corner!!