Monday, February 04, 2013
Today, while eating a package (2 in a package) of peanut butter cups (love those things), I had a small epiphany. The 1st week in January, right after I started changing out my old habits for new ones, I came down with the flu as well as having TOM & his Aunt Flo visiting & I couldn't do anything. Although that's not true, I could've continued to eat right, but I used having the flu & TOM as an excuse to get back to my old habits.
Anyway, fast forward to today. As stated above, while eating peanut butter cups, I realized that I was playing Russian roulette with my body by eating those cups as well as eating wrong after I had the flu. You know how we think people are stupid to play Russian roulette with a gun? Well, how stupid am I to be playing Russian roulette with my body by eating wrong? I have hypoglycemia and hypothyroidism as well as first & second generation diabetes in my dad, brother, my dad's mother as well as several of my aunts & uncles on dad's side. My dad & his side of the family are all big people, some of them are even obese. It seems like they didn't have self control whereas mom & her side of the family does. One of his sisters has been morbidly obese all her life & now has breathing problems as well as she has to use a Hoveround or rolling stool to get around now. I don't want to be like her, but if I don't change my ways, I'll be exactly like her. Don't get me wrong, I love her dearly & she's a good person, worked hard all her life with her husband, but because she didn't take action, she is now disabled. Mom has heart problems & high cholesterol which is more genetic than diet, but she's very strict with herself about having salt & fried foods. I'm more my dad's side of the family in that I have very little self control & I don't want to be that way; I want to be like mom. I want to have self control, realizing that it's only food, it's only fuel.
Here's what I mean by body Russian roulette ~ not eating fruits & vegetables, not drinking enough water, not exercising, eating desserts (candy bars, brownies, ice cream, cookies), drinking sodas, not eating complex carbs (whole grain pastas, breads, etc.), eating processed food rather than taking the time to fix a meal. I'm not saying I can't eat those things once in a while; I'm saying I can't eat them all the time. I can pick a free day & I can choose to have one of those things, but just one.
I've also, over the last several days, made the mistake of thinking of waiting to change my lifestyle when I could afford to buy the foods I needed, but the truth is my body can't afford to wait that long. So, I'm going to eat what we have here, learning proper portion sizes, drink water (lots of it) & walk with strength training added in. Eventually, I would like to add yoga, tai chi, biking, hiking, running, lots of physical activities.
I'm tired of playing Russian roulette with my body, are you?