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Monday, February 04, 2013

i was wondering has any gotten and body cramall over their body. u know when u get a charly horse well i get them in my stomack my sides my back my neck i have gained 45 lbs since mt sons birthday and aniversary from sleeping from missins him he committe suicide like now im trying to hold my laptop and my hand keeps going into cramps they hurt so much i went to dr today bc i had pnemonia twice and cough so much im hopng im getting better , but i have to lose weight ive gained over 150 lbs since my sons death and my daughter did the same thing 4 yrs later and two of my remaining kids wont even talk to me bc i grieve so much for joey and krissy my youngest son and i talk this is really an upbeat site i did used to do livestrong i had lost 61 lbs for my sons wedding but when joeys aniversary rolls around im heartbroken dont wanna do nothing but now im determined i have never been this heavy in my life and im very uncomfortable and i love clothes and they dont fit me i feel so bad about my appearance hopefully i can change good luck to everyone else befreiend me if u want to nice to talk to others trying always nikki
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    I'm sorry for your loss. Don't feel guilty about grieving. Everyone grieves in their own way and has a right to. I gained quite a bit of weight after my Mom passed away. It took a lot of time, but I finally snapped out of it. I still grieve for her but now I am able to do that while I still take care of me and my family.

    1869 days ago
    Keep posting so that we can continue to encourage you!

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