Monday, February 04, 2013
I don't know if I was frustrated because it is Monday, because nothing seems to cooperate, because I am PMSy, because everyone is so whiny, or because of all of the above...and more!
I am just in a bad mood this evening. I was fine at school. Not great, but fine. I pick the kids up and they start whining instantly. My daughter is crying before I even got her. From 4 pm to around 7 pm everyone whines, cries, screams, and fusses. It can really take a toll on someone! My nerves are frazzled and irritated from listening to it and trying to calm everything/everyone down. I've noticed that this happens more days than not and I think it's because the kids are on stimulation overload at school and then they get home and short out. That's the only thing I can think of. Once they get past the fits, they are happy and fine. Unfortunately that happens about 30 minutes before bed time. It's hard on several different levels. It is draining to deal with after a long day at school. But even more frustrating is that I am missing good times with the kids and they are growing up so fast. I don't know how to avoid that afternoon meltdown though. It's almost like they have a form of colic again!
Anyways, I was able to get my eating back to a better place today. Still out of range because my husband wanted to make burgers tonight. That is a challenge that causes me to struggle a bit. The things that are healthy and that I want to eat for dinner aren't things that my 2 year old wants or can eat and they aren't things that my husband wants. But making 2 meals isn't my idea of a relaxing evening after work. I'm ok with incorporating non-diet food into my lifestyle, but to me it has to be worth the calories. A lot of foods that my husband likes to cook are not my favs so they're not worth the calories to me. However, if he cooks and I don't eat it, he thinks that I don't like his cooking and gets his feelings hurt. It is a difficult line to balance on and kind of hard to explain. He means well, but doesn't understand. It's not that he isn't supportive, but he doesn't encourage or understand what I am trying to accomplish. I have tried explaining, but it isn't clicking.
Boy, I am full of rambles tonight. I'd better sign off here and look forward to a new tomorrow.
By the way, I got in 30 minutes on the bike too today.
Not a perfect day, but an improvement over my weak weekend.