Monday, February 04, 2013
I saw the doctor today about my hernia.
Bad news: Surgery is inevitable, and will be sooner rather than later. She wants me to see a surgeon this week, and a CT scan will likely be soon as well. Since I've had a life threatening bowel obstruction before, I'm at a high risk for another one. The big question now is if the local guy will even be willing to operate since this will be the 5th repair of this hernia.
Good news: I'm obese!!! Ok... that doesn't look like great news, but it IS! My BMI is no longer in the "Morbidly Obese" category, where it has been for 20+ years. I've been downgraded into the Obese category.. and I'm THRILLED about it! Go me! Can't wait until I'm "overweight".
My doctor was also really excited about this milestone, explaining that medically it puts me at MUCH lower risk for a plethora of diseases.
Anyway... at the moment I'm a bit numb with anxiety and completely overwhelmed. I have a full time job, a mom with alzheimers, and a 4 year old. I am SO not prepared to be stuck in a bed for 2 weeks, and healing for 6-8 weeks. However, I have faith that God sees the bigger picture and has a plan for me. I will NOT give up on my dreams and goals because of this.
I have been "grounded" to just the recumbent bike at the gym. Zero weights. So I will be on the bike. At the moment this looks like Mount Everest. But I am determined to make it a bump in the road.