Monday, February 04, 2013
I decided today that I would try to count the number of times a day my mind reminds me it wants to eat something, and you know it was at LEAST every 15 minutes!! Sometimes it could be more than once in a single minute! I cannot stop 'thinking food'! I don't know what to do about it. My mind just goes.... I am hungry now.... or I wish I had something to eat right now... It is CRAZY I am literally 'hungry' all day long! But it is not true hunger, it is my mind wanting to EAT!! I can't decide if it is because I am bored?, unfulfilled in life?, Lonely?, Thinking that the only satisfaction I can possibly get out of life is when I am currently chewing on food. I mean my body sort of has this 'ache' all day long for MORE food. I can't call it true 'hunger' because it doesn't matter if I just ate 5 minutes ago or even if I just ate a big meal. Within minutes of eating, my mind starts wanting more to eat. I don't know how to battle this constant 'nagging' to eat. This inner ache inside of me, I mean it is physical and constant. I don't know what to do about it. I just feel baffled and defeated by this constant attack on me from my own body and mind. the sinful nature? Is it the devil tempting me? What is it??? I try to think of other things, I try to put it out of my mind but like I said within 15 minutes my mind is right back there again tapping at my shoulder and wondering if I could have a little something more to eat. UUUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!