Monday, February 04, 2013
Today I had my first day of orientation at my new job! I'm really so very excited! The facility is such a great fit for me, and for my personality. Everyone is so nice! It's going to be a very demanding, stressful job. But the company treats their employees very well and I'm happy with the salary and the benefits! You all don't even know how badly I needed this in my life right now. I feel such a great relief to have finally found a job that interests me!
I started off my day with a high protein, high fiber breakfast and was able to pass up the doughnuts and kolaches that were available for the new-hires! And I packed a healthy lunch, and was able to ignore the complimentary lunch of deep fried chicken!
I've been very nervous about starting my new career, however, and that's why I have been in an irritable mood and is probably why I've had such terrible binge-urges and weight gain.
I'm hoping that now that I've got my foot in the door and broken the ice, that I'll be able to work through my nerves and do well in my new position! I already feel so much better!
One of the highlights of my weekend was shopping for new slacks. My old slacks were literally falling off. I have NEVER been the type to enjoy shopping, because it was always been such a grueling, stressful endeavor with excess weight. But I must admit... life at a comfortable weight and size is an amazing feeling... and the shopping experience as a size 2 is so liberating, that the feeling is still very alien to me!
Also, I realized during my long day of hospital orientation that this is the first time I have ever started a job at a comfortable and healthy weight. I'm so much more confident and feel so much better in my own skin (and in my clothes!). I sat next to a lady who is the size that I was when I was at my heaviest. I felt so bad for her because I could tell how uncomfortable she was by her body language and constantly having to tug and re-adjust her clothing. It really makes me appreciate what I've accomplished... even though some days I struggle so hard to accept that I have lost the weight. Perhaps slowly, but surely, my mind is catching up with my body. I hope someday I can officially accept that I'm no longer morbidly obese!
Losing weight has saved my life in so many ways!
Here is a pic of my new slacks (size 2)!