It's lonely in plus size
Monday, February 04, 2013
Week 3 and 4 - I've maintained being consistent. Monday I do home workouts, Tuesday and Thursday is yoga, Friday and Saturdays are High cardio days and also cheap days.
I have been in the greatest mood but had a slight set back on Saturday. I'm a Matron of honor in my sis-in-law's late June wedding. We had out first meeting to decide on a gown. I got measured by the seamstress for my sizing. She said I needed a size 20 because of my hips I presently fit into size 16-18 in jeans now but I expected that I would need a larger size in the gowns...It's just I have been working so hard and it saddened me to still fit in a size 20. It especially didn't help when the sales girl was yelling I found a size 24 for you to try on. All the other maids didn't have trouble finding their smaller sizes it became such a big deal to find my size in numerous gowns. The hard part was not that I'm a size 20 it was just the circus around finding my size. However, I will say that just about most of the gowns look good on my shape and that felt good. After all day being in that store we decided to try after boutique that was owned by the bride's best friend/bridesmaid's mother. This just added more salt on an already open wound. I could not try on the gowns in that store because the largest they had in the gown we were interested in was a size 8. The gown was gorgeous, the bride was very please and we loved it too. So when it came time to place the order I was told my gown would cost an additional $40 dollars very rudely. I would had have to lose 2 inches off of my hips in order to paid $20 additional dollars more than everyone else. It was just so humiliating.
It was like all my hard work in in the gym and new eating lifestyle didn't matter just at that moment. Even though I know it has made a difference in my life, I feel better, more energy, and see that I'm toning up. I had to just keep my head high and try not look at it as a personal attack because these particular gowns were custom-made for your measurement.
So from here I'm just sticking to what I have been doing and not pressuring myself to get 2 inches off my hips. I'm just staying with the program I'm on and it will come.