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Monday, February 04, 2013

I am so angry with myself. I lost weight and did so well while I was in Ottawa. I was 29 days into my no smoking plan. I made extensive plans to continue with what I have been doing. I chose goals to work toward and posted these goals. Now I remember why I don't plan goals.

Since coming home from Ottawa, I have been gorging on cookies, smoking, and not working toward any of my goals. I don't know what has come over me.

BUT BUT BUT, I realize bashing myself won't make this any better. so now it is up to me to pull myself together. How to do that?

Recall what my ultimate goal is. That is to be thinner and healthy. To be able to walk anywhere for as long as I want in any weather. To shop with my friends in regular sized stores. I feel so left out on our group weekends. My goal for 2013 is to lose 50 lbs. I can't even imagine how I might feel, healthwise or the joy of wearing a couple of smaller sized clothes. That is what I want.

Now to pull myself together. I will reread my goals. I will believe in myself. I will give myself a break and remember that I am only human and I am not perfect. I always want to be all or nothing. I am actually , sometimes.

I am so glad for blogs. They help my mind unwind. I'm better now.

Gini emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MSEMBERSTORM 2/9/2013 12:07AM


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RICHILA 2/6/2013 1:52PM


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DEBIGENE 2/5/2013 9:42AM

    I love your positive attitude and I have faith in you that you will get back on track. It is just a bump inthe road and a hurdle to jump !!! You CAN and WILL do it !!!
Because you know you MUST !!! It's a matter of your life and living it as long as possible to enjoy it with your family and friends. They need, want and love you and that's all there is too it !!!

You Go GIRL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    Blogging is certainly better than overeating and smoking!
Yes, it is many times therapeutic!

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MSLZZY 2/4/2013 11:26PM

    Focus and make a vision collage of what you really want.
Find pictures of new clothes, words to express your goals.
If you need help, let me know.

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LYNNWILK2 2/4/2013 9:36PM

    so glad you've exhaled and are planning on rereading your goals and making them reality (what you really want).
But it all starts with putting on the shoes.
Getting yourself moving and backing away from the cookies. :)

You are so wonderful!!!! you really truly are awesome me dear friend.
It starts when you put on your shoes and get yourself moving.
15 minute challenges.... anything that takes you 15 minutes.
Back to the basics. You are great! You can do this. You can make it and you can win!

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MISCHIEFBOI 2/4/2013 9:25PM

    Sounds like a bit straying from the path you've chosen has been done.
We are only human. A bit of straying now and then does happen.
1. You've recognized something has happen to derail you. Brava!! emoticon
Are you able to find out what it is?
2. You, Ms. Gini, have decided to take control over the situation. emoticon
Be careful not to stress yourself. If you can only take one or two steps at a time to succeed. Then do just that. Don't worry about the third step until later.
3.Blog to your hearts content, dear lady. There is no such thing as too much, if it helps you. Way to go you for finding something that will help you move forward.
One moment at a time.
Have a good night and beautiful morning ma'am. emoticon

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EMMACORY 2/4/2013 7:39PM

    emoticon emoticon You have named what you want. Now go for it. BELIEVE...ACHIEVE!

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