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A reality check

Monday, February 04, 2013

As you know I have had a hamstring injury and I haven't been able to run since October.I have struggles with it until today when reality hit me. I work in nursing home and today was a brutal day. My floor had 4 deaths today and one more on the verge. The one that was on the verge is one of my fav ladies and I am really close with the family. As I sat there holding this ladies hand waiting for her to take her last breath it just hit me. I am moping around my house feeling sorry for myself just because I can not not run. This lady is laying here and fighting for her life WTF is wrong with me. I felt like such a piece of garbage and felt pretty low. So now that the lord has given me a reality check I am seeing much more clearly. I dont care if I ever run again it is not the end of the world I will find something else to do. I have my health my family and that is so much more important. There are people in the world with much worse things going on with their lives besides a stupid hamstring injury. So please remember when you have a small problem there is always someone out there with a huge problem

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ALIDOSHA 2/8/2013 4:39PM

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CINDYSDAY 2/5/2013 7:48PM

    so true

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MELROSE13 2/5/2013 3:03PM

    It does give one something to think about. Sorry it had to hit you so hard, but don't beat yourself up over were there for her and at that moment that is all that mattered. But I do thank God everyday for my is something so many of us take for granted. Hope your injury is healed soon!

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EBURGITE 2/5/2013 11:58AM

    that is a head-smacking moment. it brought tears to my eyes. we need to keep re-thinking our goals, re-framing our life in the light of who we are and what we can do. accept our limitations, and celebrate what we CAN do. that said, i'm still hoping you'll be able to run again. emoticon to you little brother.

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GABIBEAR 2/5/2013 10:35AM

    That is a great reality check for you to learn. Some people never get to that point until it is too late. Always be grateful for what you have - especially since you have such a beautiful family to thank God for. It is a lesson we all need to learn and re-learn, so thank you for bringing it to light again! I learned this lesson a long time ago, but I too forget sometimes.

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OKBACK2ME 2/5/2013 1:19AM

    I work with Seniors too, but in the Community and yes the losses can be great and sometimes overwhelming. It is a Special Person that can work with people and give them the dignity they deserve!

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MISSLISA1973 2/5/2013 1:18AM

    The reality check came at a time when you were ready for it. Yes, the hamstring injury seems small in comparison, but it is still a loss and it is OK to grieve it. Not just OK, but necessary. Your time for grieving that loss is apparently over, or the passing of these individuals would have affected you differently than they did.

I am sorry to hear of all your losses and for "the one on the verge." I can only imagine how tough that must be for you.

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JENNCABA 2/5/2013 12:50AM

    Yes you are right, there is always someone out there that has more struggles in life than ourselves....Sorry you had such a bad day at work but always remember you are doing something wonderful by being there for all of them : ) Things may not always turn out how we want them to and we may not always get to do the things we want to do but I believe that everything happens for a reason......Everything we experience in life only makes us stronger and we can always find knew things that we will love to do and keep us going..... : ) emoticon emoticon

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MASRITE 2/5/2013 12:14AM

    Definitely a reality check blog. Thanks for sharing. And, I do hope the hamstring gets better and you can run again.

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MARITIMER3 2/4/2013 11:41PM

    What a wonderful blog. We all need a reality check from time to time. You have a very difficult, demanding job, and today was horrific. I hope you were able to relax and enjoy time with your family when you came home. Take care of yourself,

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RUNNERRACHEL 2/4/2013 11:15PM

    Sorry you're dealing with all that at work. It's good to realize what we have and be grateful. Still hope and pray for your recovery!

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WONDERWOMAN 2/4/2013 10:09PM

    Thank you for the reality check. Perfect timing - You know where I'm at.

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CHRIS3874 2/4/2013 10:06PM

    Yes its true no matter how bad what YOU have seems there is always some poor sod worse off than you. I still hope you feel better soon. Sounds like a much nicer home than the one my old man was in. They just warehoused the patients and waited for them to die. I could say more about staff but I am certain some one would accuse me of being racist or not politically correct.

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MYLADY4 2/4/2013 9:21PM

    Death put's life into perspective. Hang in there during this tougher time.

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ROXYZMOM 2/4/2013 8:49PM

    How wonderful it is that you were there for her! We gain so much from helping others.
Sounds like you have had an exhausting, stressful week. I am sorry your hamstring is still not healed. You have a hard job and need some kind of outlet for stress - probably why you miss running so much.

Are you allowed to bike or swim?

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KIPPER15 2/4/2013 8:46PM

    It is humbling to see that our own problems are very small in the large scheme of things. I am sure with the fact that you pour so much of yourself into your job, you make it a better place to be. Do not be hard on yourself for wanting good for yourself. It is only human. You have the knowledge that you have the love of your family and friends and that is very powerful. Healing comes in many ways. You just found that out for yourself. emoticon

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DEBBY4576 2/4/2013 8:40PM

  I've come to the same conclusion. I have bad feet. I am going to do what I can and be thankful I can get the steps in I need each day. You may recall I have my 91 year old mom living with me. She had a angiography for carotid artery problems, and now faces a colonoscopy both way to close together. No big deal to you and me, but really hard for her at her age. I began to rejoice in being able to move when she moved in, and also when my brother, now deceased, was confined to a wheel chair. I am sorry you had such a day. As you told of holding that beautiful woman's hand today, you made me realize once again how lucky we are to be healthy. I'm glad you are discovering the gifts God gave you at what I'd call a young man's age. You'll never be sorry you reevaluated your life and realize that some things are just more important. God bless you and your lovely family.

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LIVINHEALTHY9 2/4/2013 8:08PM

    Don't get down on yourself because of your injury. It's ok to feel sad that you aren't able to run.
I do know it takes a special person to be able to do what you do for a living and work in the environment that you do. Not everyone can do it.
You gave comfort and kindness to a woman who needed a friend. That's something to feel good about.



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INGMARIE 2/4/2013 7:50PM

    So true. it is so easy to fall for the old "por me" thoughts.
Sorry about the deaths, i used to work in a nursing home when i was a student in sweden,i is always sad when it is time for them to go.
Hugs to you. emoticon

Hope the hamstring gets better. emoticon

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ANGJENN822 2/4/2013 7:24PM

    Amen. I'm sorry about the deaths...I can't imagine.

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DIANNEMT 2/4/2013 7:17PM

    Your leg will heal, you will run again. But yes, these people are dealing life and death. So--good for you to see the reality. Don't beat yourself up--just go forward now with a better attitude!!

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DAPHNE_RUNS 2/4/2013 6:40PM

    So sorry to read about the loss at your job. It is sad because they have family and now a few families are making funeral arrangements. I do agree that sometimes we throw "pity parties" for ourselves when other people are dealing with much bigger problems. Thank you for the reality check. I hope your favorite lady takes a turn for the better.

Saying a quick prayer right now.


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LYNSEY723 2/4/2013 6:24PM

    I'm sorry to hear that it was such a bad day that gave you a wake-up call. But you are right - there are many worse places to be than most of us are right now. Thanks for this blog - we all need a reality check from time to time.

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SONYALATRECE 2/4/2013 6:24PM

    So true! No matter how far down you are, there's somene out there in FAR worse condition. Besides, what else really matters if not our health, strength, family, friends and sanity?

Not much...

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