Monday, February 04, 2013
It's been about 8 months since I exercised regularly (ie; 5 days a week for an hour) and I can tell. I pulled up a quick, 10 minute workout video on youtube that I use to do all the time. It use to be no problem to go through it quick and get my heart beat up and my breathing going. But it never HURT. Not even when I first started doing it.
This time though? Oh god, my chest hurt and my legs hurt. Crazy what 8 months of sporadic exercising can do.
I've gained weight back and I've lost what little bit of "shape" I had when it comes to exercising. My body's being beaten down and I just keep letting it happen. By not getting up off my butt I've just been helping along the bad habits.
I can't even really understand WHY I won't get up most of the times. I want this, I really do. I'll even catch myself saying.."I'll look like that someday" when I see a thin person. But I never DO anything about it.
Where'd my inspiration and motivation go? When I first started this last January I had no problems getting up early, before work, and exercising. Now though? Oh god, I just don't want to do it. I still get up early but I just get on the computer and lurk (sometimes watching shows...sometimes I crochet). Maybe I'm getting up TOO early? Or not going to bed early enough....and that's just making it worse on me in the mornings.
I've cut my workout minutes down to 30 minutes a day (5 days a week) now. It's what I was doing when I first started this. Which means it's taken my calories down as well. Oh god, this is going to be hard to get use to again. I just need to start making better choices though. And I need to stop going back for seconds!
I'm just so tired of being out of shape and fat. And my clothes are starting to get tight again! I can't have that! All that hard work I did last year has gone down the drain...and unless I start doing something about it, all of it will be gone before I know it. It sure doesn't take as long to put it back on as it does to lose it!
Here's to hoping that today is going to be the restart of my journey!
Lets call it a "2nd Installation"! Hehe.