Monday, February 04, 2013
A feeling of contentment or self-satisfaction, especially when coupled with an unawareness of danger, trouble, or controversy.
Wow... that pretty much defines where I am to a tee!
Saturday I saw the scale go down to the lowest I've seen it yet, 182.4. What did I do Saturday afternoon? Make a batch of cookie dough and order pizza. Something in my brain clicked and said "oh, you did good this week, you can have some cookies and pizza". And I did. A LOT of it. And... I paid for it. Twice. :-/ TMI, I know, but my body did not like it, at all.
I've come to this place where I think that a little bit won't hurt me, and then I go overboard and it does end up hurting me. I need to learn how to be this weight, or less, without wanting to be complacent or try to sabotage myself after I do well.
Part of me feels like I'm missing out. Those foods that I cut out for so long... I'm never gonna taste them again. Even though I know that's not true. I need to get my head out of that fat girl mindset and into this new me. Just need to learn how to do that.