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Monday, February 04, 2013

A feeling of contentment or self-satisfaction, especially when coupled with an unawareness of danger, trouble, or controversy.

Wow... that pretty much defines where I am to a tee!

Saturday I saw the scale go down to the lowest I've seen it yet, 182.4. What did I do Saturday afternoon? Make a batch of cookie dough and order pizza. Something in my brain clicked and said "oh, you did good this week, you can have some cookies and pizza". And I did. A LOT of it. And... I paid for it. Twice. :-/ TMI, I know, but my body did not like it, at all.

I've come to this place where I think that a little bit won't hurt me, and then I go overboard and it does end up hurting me. I need to learn how to be this weight, or less, without wanting to be complacent or try to sabotage myself after I do well.

Part of me feels like I'm missing out. Those foods that I cut out for so long... I'm never gonna taste them again. Even though I know that's not true. I need to get my head out of that fat girl mindset and into this new me. Just need to learn how to do that.
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    I read an article that said telling yourself "Ill have that later" decreased your desire for it. I think the study involved college kids and m&ms

    I have been trying to do that myself lately ... telling myself I want cookies AND pizza, but Ill order the pizza (have a reasonable amount) and save the rest for later. Ill make the cookies later too ... It seems to work for me. Im not depriving myself - Im learning to space out the goodies and treats... which means less damage.

    Overall thought I do feel like its one step forward and two steps back some days ... those back steps just make you stronger!

    (I just realized this is from February, but Ill leave the advice anyway in case it helps!)
    1774 days ago
  • CC3833
    Swtiching food is a very hard thing to do. I do alot of take out to save me time. I wish there was a place I could call that has healthier alternatives.... Keep pushing!
    1845 days ago
    All too familiar for me as well. Perhaps a fun day, something tat you just love today & have so much fun your don't think about anything else for days. That is how I feel after a great hike.
    1845 days ago
    I know *exactly* what you're talking about.
    1846 days ago
    When you figure it out, let me know, that is exactly how I feel (without seeing 182 WOW, you go girl)...

    1846 days ago
  • TANYA602
    I wish I had an easy fix for this! Seriously! Something clicks one day, though. And you CAN have those "other" foods, and enjoy them, yet like everything, in moderation. Today I am CRAVING a cheeseburger - haven't had one since Jan 3 (how crazy is it that I know that!?) - and yet I'm lucky that there isn't anything even remotely handy to satisfy that craving except for some yogurt and granola. I'll forget about the hamburger within an hour, and hopefully by dinner laugh at it. Hang in there and find alternate choices to fuel your body. We honestly don't have to give up everything, though.
    1846 days ago
    Wow, I had a similar experience. I dipped under 200 lbs for the first time in 20+ years and then I ate my way back into the 200's. In my case I was scared. Since then I've not been able to get back under the mark and move on. I'd like to be upset about it but clearly there's something I've yet to learn and a message I've not grasped. * SIGH*

    May we both find our way and find our middle ground.

    1846 days ago
    The same thing happens to me. I was within 3 lbs of my pre holiday weight. So yesterday had my boys home and we watched the super bowl and ate. Of course I overate and drank to much beer, but we were having so much fun. So back to the work of getting back on plan. We can reward ourselves, but we need to do it in small bits and not all in one day.
    1846 days ago
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