I'm so tired of starting over. Every time it is more tedious than the last.
And every time I gain it back, I gain back just a little bit more.

I can't seem to lose weight on my own, I can't seem to lose weight with my boyfriend (well, he's losing weight, but I'm gaining it) but I have a hard time sticking to these online sorts of weight loss programs.

But I'm starting again. Because otherwise it's just going to get worse.

Last year was terrible. I got hurt at work, left my job and have been unemployed for almost a year. I fell into a deep depression because of this and I have been struggling ever since.

I saw doctors and tried medications but none really worked and some made me gain even more weight.

This last month we moved to Chicago. Well, I moved first, Ken just got here. So the last month was a struggle too, adjusting to a new city. My relationship is in a needing work phase, which is stressful also.

But I'm really done gaining weight and feeling crappy.

I'm off all the meds, I've become a volunteer at a museum, I've joined an awesome gym that I'm committing to going to 4-5 days a week, if only to try out their cool classes!

I'm nixing junk food and beer. I'm cutting back on the amount I eat and how often I eat out. When I first moved to Chicago, we didn't have gas (no heat, no stove, etc) so I was eating out almost everyday. I was also walking a ton but now that it is really cold I've become less active while still not eating great.

My goals for this week are to drink 8+ glasses of water a day, 1 salad a day and go to the gym 4 times.
Also, no junk food (candy, fried foods, processed sugary crap) or beer.

I feel like a fool to come back with my tail between my legs, but I know I'm not the only one who has been here before.

I look forward to the support I get from fellow Sparkers.