I joined Spark this past week and got my motivation in gear, got my food ready, and my exercise plan all set up. I'm doing good so far, I had a moment of temptation staring me in the face at the grocery store yesterday but I got passed it and kept it moving.
What I haven't been able to shake is the surprising addiction I have to my scale. Before I joined Spark I never realized how much I was focused on the lbs lost rather than other things like inches (I've lost 6 so far since Jan 1st)/none since I joined spark but that was only a few days ago; how my clothes fit, am I feeling less sluggish and bloated, am I eating right, and the list goes on. Even though I've been doing a lot of little things to help my transition come easier, what I've been bad with is not hitting that scale as soon as I get out of the bed - Daily.
I've become so dependent on it that I really, really realized just how crippling it can be. Yes of course, when you weigh yourself and you see the number didn't change or see it went up, it makes you feel crappy or disappointed but up until this past weekend, I hadn't really understood just how much that "number" can mess with your day, or not if you don't watch yourself. I don't want that. I don't want what should be a positive and less stressful day to become more of the same just because I'm sad that I gained a pound or the number stayed the same that day.
So I've decided to make a true effort to only weigh myself once per week. I had this conversation with myself yesterday morning. Sunday, my official weigh-in day..and that I wouldn't weight again until next Sunday. Let me tell you, without thinking, I jumped right onto the scale this morning - the # was the same as yesterday but I didn't even recall my goal of not weighing for another week until after I weighed - it's become SO routine for me!
This avoiding the scale will be a challenge for me but I have put it away, out of eyesight and so I think that will make it much easier because I won't see it.
I think like many people who first get back into healthy eating and losing weight, we forget how much bigger the process is than that number. It's much more than that. My energy is greater and I just feel more invigorated. That in itself is a god-send for me because 2 months ago, I was tired all of the time and slept half my weekends away when my son wasn't keeping me busy.
It's a small crutch that has taken over my life and as of today, no more. Weekly weigh-ins only for me, setting an "other goal" to stick to it, and concentrating on the small victories that will get me to my goal. I'm excited to see what changes come along!