Monday, February 04, 2013
Today is my son's birthday. He is 18 years old. Unfortunately he and I do not get along at all. He has absolutely no respect for me whatsoever and he says things to me and calls me names that just cut through my heart. Besides the pain I experienced 18 years ago, today has to be the worst pain yet. I let him out of my car last night because I refuse to take the verbal abuse anymore. I don't deserve it and I don't have to take it. Until he realizes that he is throwing his life away on alcohol and drugs I will not subject myself to being around him anymore. It hurts so bad because I know the potential he has and I worry non stop about his safety. People keep telling me to practice tough love and to stop enabling him. It is so hard to do when it is your own child. I just keep praying that God will intervene somehow and turn his life around.
Happy Birthday Mitchell! I love you.