Monday, February 04, 2013
I haven't been on Sparkpeople lately because I've been ashamed. I had to talk myself into getting on this morning to write this blog but I thought I could help me get back on track.
Last week, I had training at work which cut into my workout schedule. I didn't work out a single day last week, and to make things worse, my diet took a horrible turn. This weekend, I hate pizza, fried chicken, bacon and beans, corn bread, chocolate covered pretzels...it was horrible. I feel horrible. I have no energy, but that could be because I was up late watching the Super bowl (Go RAVENS!!!!).
I'm back at it today though. I'm going to the gym at 11 to run and then I'm going to do TRX. I'll be sweating beer and cheesecake from my pores, it's going to suck, but it's completely necessary.
WE leave for Peru on Friday. My goal was to be in the 170's by the time we left. Looks like I'll be pushing 200lbs instead. I suppose that's why I gave up last week. I knew I couldn't reach my goal. I had been doing everything right and still gaining weight (fat). I went to the doctor to have my thyroid checked again. He said my levels were normal and that my meds didn't need to be adjusted. "But why am I losing hair and gaining weight, and feel completely exhausted all the time?!?" He couldn't give me an answer. I may have to see a hormone specialist when I get back to make sure my body is readjusting to not being pregnant. That was really the only answer the doctor could give me "Maybe your body still thinks it's pregnant." *sigh*
I'm trying to think of what to pack for our trip. It's summer down there but I really do not feel comfortable wearing shorts yet. It's so freaking frustrating!! matthew is almost a year and i'm still wearing maternity pants! What do I have to do tto get this weight off?!?!?