Monday, February 04, 2013
Sometimes people who haven't had to lose weight think it should be easy, eat less & exercise. Truly it is a simple concept. But for people like me whose weight loss issues originate not from just having a large appetite and being inactive, but have a deeper reasons behind being overweight, losing weight is much more complicated. Its almost entirely a mental process. Yes, I have to eat less and exercise but if my state of mind is in the right place those things do come natural for me. My emotions, my thoughts are what got me here in the beginning. I depend on food for too many things. When I am having a bad day junk food or fast food or soda are a comfort to me. Some of these things even bring back memories of easier times in my life. Really I am very happy with my life. I have a wonderful family, a decent place to live. Things are good in that way, but the everyday stuff is what gets me in trouble. Financial issues, not being able to find a job that I like, extended family drama; these are the things that keep me up at night. When I was younger it was self-esteem issues. Food is the answer. Or at least that is what it has been for the last 12 years of my life. How do you break a habit like that? I am not sure I even know the answer, but I am going to do my best to try.
Do you ever wish you could back in time and tell yourself "don't get fat"? It would be much easier to have started as a normal eater. Found normal way to deal with things. I am not even sure what that is. Some people drink alcohol, smoke, and have other vices to get through life. Of course, there's always exercise. But that's not always an option when a bad day comes along. I need techniques, strategies, new habits.
My new mission is to work on me. Figure out a new "normal" for me.