Monday, February 04, 2013
I changed to picture on my profile to a picture of our old gal Ladeebug who we laid to rest before Christmas this year. She was 14 and 1/2 years old and was in failing health. When my daughter Emily boved out a few years ago she took her with her because she was her dog. She bought her with her own money when she was 8 or 9 believe it or not. Ladeebug was 7 months old when we picked her up at a woman that breeds and shows these beautiful dogs. She fit right in to our family and had the most sweetest and caring temperment. I have been missing her alot, I keep remember her nose nuzzling my hand as I walked by her, and she was a moaner, she talked but did it with this hilarious moaning sound. We used to always tell her "we should of named you Mona". She used to pull the little kids around in sleds when she was young, she loved and watched over her family well.
One of these pictures is when my kids were younger and my son has no hair, he was going thru chemo treatments, he is fine now and 14 years old. These are just a few pics of our gal. The day she went to the vet, my daughter Emily said she was taking her because it was her place. She was in utter agony days before she did take her knowing what was coming. On the her last day, Emily fed her some of her favorite food, she brushed her coat, and clipped her and there, trimmed her nails and took her for a short walk. Then Emily and her boyfriend took Laddebug to the Vet. On a side note...I told Emily I could not go with her, my heart could not do it, Ladeebug would be the first of our four to leave and I could not go, my heart was breaking because of that choice and it was breaking because I felt like I was letting her down not being there. But if Emily could not of, I would of stepped up. I told her I wanted her brought back here shere she lived most of her years and buried in her favorite spot out front under the pine trees. When they got here, I could not even look out the window because I knew If I seen them carrying the big beautiful dogs lifeless body I feel I would of needed a trip to the hospital...I really felt I would of been unconsolable. Craig went out when they got here and the guys started digging the hole and Emily came in the house. She wanted to take Laddie, our sheltie who is also 14 and 1/2 years old out to where Ladeebug was to be burried.
I told he "no way, those dogs spent most of their lives together and Laddie is too smart" and I did not want him to know the love of his life is gone, I did not want him to suffer or be depressed. I cannot tell you what this dog meant to us. She helped my daughter Emily get over the death of her father shortly after we got her, she went thru my sons chemo, then was there for my kids when my mother got cancer and I was gone on and off for six months till my mom died. She was with is when we lived in a camper 6 months with Laddie and a guinea pig while we built this house. She was here for it all. She is buried rught where she loved, When I look out the windo I miss her, I could of had them bury her out back but it was not about me, it was about her. This way it was my way of letting her know she will never be forgotten. If I have alot of mispellings in this blog please forgive me, I have cried the whole time I wrote this and I find it heard seeing thru the tears. This is my way of letting the old girl Iam loving her still. I love you old gal and even now I sometimes have to ask myself is that a memory or is it perhaps you nuzzling my hand here and there thru out the day when I find myself thinking of you and finding a tear running down my cheek, I love you old gal....