Sunday, February 03, 2013
I've been off track for the past couple of weeks, first with the flu and then with a slow recovery into exercise. Thankfully, I've been eating healthy (to get healthy), but have had so little energy I am only doing the basics: sleeping, eating, drinking, working. I'm finally feeling a bit like myself again, and have an appointment with a friend at the gym tomorrow. Even if I don't do a lot, I know I will get a workout in.
Its been a little over a month since I've joined Sparkpeople, and I've learned so much. What I've learned the most is how much I appreciate the encouragement and inspiration of other people. The friends that I am making on Sparkpeople are authentic human beings doing their best to live healthy lives. It is so refreshing to be a part of a community concerned about health that is based in reality rather than in fantasies (magazines, news reports and fad diets!). I have discovered a new respect for my body and for my life. I am really lucky to be here, no matter what I weigh!
I'm also learning how much commitment and day-to-day hard work are involved in creating a healthy life. I am no longer thinking of this time on Sparkpeople as a weight-loss program to get back to my healthy weight. Instead its become a place where I take time to check in with myself and new people in my life. How are people doing? How am I doing? Am I living the way I want to be living?
When I log-in to Sparkpeople, I find myself envisioning the life I want to lead; I am re-evaluating all my decisions. Do I like my job? Does it nourish me? What is working in my relationship? How could this relationship nourish me and my husband more? Who is in my life? How do they treat me? How do I treat them? Am I the friend I want to be? Am I being treated with the love and respect I deserve?
I am discovering how, in the past couple of years, I have not just let my health go, I have let my mindfulness go. I have let my ambition go. I have lost my way and let myself off the hook. I have stopped asking me to give my best. And, I have suffered because of that. I want to get back on track with myself; following my own path and living my life in the best way I know how.
Thank you, Sparkfriends, for all the inspiration and support you have shared with me. Just by being yourselves and sharing with me you are inspiring me to be more of who I want to be, inside and out.