Sunday, February 03, 2013
Hello, my friends!
Time to catch up, and make a real effort to come back. Where to start? It's been a hard time, physically and emotionally. That's why I haven't been around. I've made a few attempts to come back, but as you have noticed, not very successful ones!
The months of working on the math books took a bigger toll than I realized.... I have been exhausted - physically, physiologically, and emotionally. So much so that even though I had less work and more time in January, I just haven't felt like doing anything.... I always feel tired and just keep putting everything off - doing only what is absolutely required, or that which requires the least effort.
The fact that most days I have knee pain, trouble walking and handling stairs (I live on the 3rd floor!), hasn't helped. And putting together the knee pain and the general weakness and tiredness, leaves me with even less energy and motivation.
And on top of all of that, Yolanda's father (as you know, Yolanda's family is my Honduran family) was very sick and weak all of January - and really, had been agonizing for the past three weeks. It was a slow process, and he suffered a lot - was always in pain and was very frustrated with his incapacidad. It was very hard to see him suffer, and to be able to do so little to help him. He required around the clock attention. The last 8 or 10 days, her brothers and sisters came from around the country and stayed at her house to help take care of him. The stress was very great - I spent most of my time at her house with the family, and so many times we thought he was going, and everyone would be called from wherever they were... only to have him hang on. We prayed with him, sang hymns, spoke to him about moving on to heaven, assured him of our love, gave him permission to go, assured him he would not be forgotten, and that the family would take care of one another.
He was 94, and up until November, still active, able to move about, go outside, sit and talk with friends, etc. At the end, he was very ready to move on, kept asking why the Lord didn't take him. Until finally, yesterday, feast of our Lady of Suyapa, at 11:15 am, he peacefully passed on. We are all happy that his suffering is over, even though it's always hard to say good-bye. And we are glad that he went yesterday, as over the weekend, all the family who live in other cities, had to return to their homes and work (they had gotten a few days permission, or taken vacation days owed to them, but couldn't stay on any longer) Only one or two had already left, and had to turn around and come back, but at least most of them were still here.
Maybe now that both stress factors are over (math books and Yolands's father) we can begin to rest and recuperate and get back some energy. The school year began on Thursday. But at least for Yolanda and I, since we only work with the pastoral dept. of school, it's not too demanding.
I just want to thank all of you for being so understanding, and hopefully, this time I will be able to come back, even if gradually.
I also really need to work on exercising and losing weight - my doctor is really after me!!
Love and blessings to each of you! Marge