Sunday, February 03, 2013
I'm really just disappointed in myself. I lost all of that weight and felt really good about myself. I was in good habits of exercising and eating. Somehow things in the past year and a half have just slid downhill. At first it was just a few pounds back and then it turned into a whole 15. I don't feel confident anymore. I feel like I need to hide the fat rolls on my stomach. I got out of exercising
My main problemis that I blame my problems on an external source. Gaining all this weight was because of the stress. I just eat when I stress, thats what I do. I stopped exercising because I got hurt and then out of the habit. I need to be careful how I exercise.
I've finally realized that I am the one to blame for everything. It is my choices and mine only that have gotten me where I am. No one forced fried foods and doctor pepper down my throat. I am so busy but I spend so much time wasted on the internet that I could easily have spent doing a short workout.
I'm really working on getting back into good habits. Eating is the hardest part but I'm trying to make baby steps. Exercise has been easier since starting ballet. I really love doing that. I'm also working back up to be able to run a 5K.
I can do this. I can lose 15 pounds because GAINING that 15 pounds was my choice too.