Sunday, February 03, 2013
I feel like this war on fat is never going to end. I seem to get motivated for about 2 wks and then **poof** the motivation vanishes as quickly as it started. I honestly and over it and I am so very frustrated and concerned that I am destined to be a big girl for eternity. I am trying very hard to go into this with a positive mode of thinking but its very hard when I continue to keep disappointing myself. 60 LBS I LOST 2 yrs ago and it took less than a year to gain it back. I put so much hard into getting to a fitness level I had NEVER been at before in my entire previous life, and I just let it go. I let every pound back on my body (well almost every pound, it may as well be every pound), I let every muscle get flabby and weak, and I let every single unhealthy thing rule my life................. AGAIN!!! Obviously, the motivation, the control, the confidence in doing everything right, has slipped away from me. I am completely out of control and with this new job I have been working at I have no idea how in the hell I am going to get that control back. I miss it, my body misses me, my kid misses it. I can NOT continue on this path. It is time to turn this very weak, lumpy, 37 year old body, back into a healthy, on-the-go none stop younger chic. Because I am tired of feeling 37. I'm ready to get back to the go go go go me that I use to be.