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Sunday, February 03, 2013

I feel like this war on fat is never going to end. I seem to get motivated for about 2 wks and then **poof** the motivation vanishes as quickly as it started. I honestly and over it and I am so very frustrated and concerned that I am destined to be a big girl for eternity. I am trying very hard to go into this with a positive mode of thinking but its very hard when I continue to keep disappointing myself. 60 LBS I LOST 2 yrs ago and it took less than a year to gain it back. I put so much hard into getting to a fitness level I had NEVER been at before in my entire previous life, and I just let it go. I let every pound back on my body (well almost every pound, it may as well be every pound), I let every muscle get flabby and weak, and I let every single unhealthy thing rule my life................. AGAIN!!! Obviously, the motivation, the control, the confidence in doing everything right, has slipped away from me. I am completely out of control and with this new job I have been working at I have no idea how in the hell I am going to get that control back. I miss it, my body misses me, my kid misses it. I can NOT continue on this path. It is time to turn this very weak, lumpy, 37 year old body, back into a healthy, on-the-go none stop younger chic. Because I am tired of feeling 37. I'm ready to get back to the go go go go me that I use to be.

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JACARD 2/4/2013 9:13AM

  I'm in the same place except a month further down the road. I lost 65 pounds over 2011 -- gained back 45 over the last six months of 2012.

And I spent at least a month thinking about it, playing with the knowledge that it had to stop (the worst eating month of all) before buckling down and getting back to it. Five weeks in, I can say I don't know what switch was flipped, why I'm back "on the wagon," but it feels good.

You can do it!

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NEW_ME33 2/4/2013 12:07AM

    I am going to continue to move forward with positive thinking. I HAVE done this before and WILL keep on that path. Thank you for your great advise and support. Im gonna hang strong and make it work for me =)

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FITFRIT 2/3/2013 10:52PM

    I am right where you are. I am once again too busy to maintain the awesome workouts I was doing and I have lost my motivation. I need to gain it back, I am not giving up, I will get it back and you will too!

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TERESA6262 2/3/2013 8:39PM

    Oh my goodness. I could have written this blog instead of you. All i would need to do it is change the age to 50, and the pounds lost and gained-back to 45 lbs. I'm finding my mo-jo again. If you're on're moving in the right direction. I am at the end of week 4, of my second go-round. I decided to just do "7 days of healthy." I lost 3 lbs, and committed to another 7 days..... a month later I'm still in the game...hang CAN do this! Thanks for posting!

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DIANAS 2/3/2013 7:48PM

    Oh don't be so harsh on this topic, darling!
I was fit as a fiddle for ages and just let myself go (gained 50 pounds starting from my lowes weight) and it frustrates me just as much!. But now I'm actually making progress (I just recently posted it in my SparkBlog). Even if you loose motivation, just try to keep it steady for a week. So if you do 2 steps forward and then push "pause", you'll still be moving forward.
You did it once, you can do it again! Just take some notes about why you let yourself go the last time and don't make the same mistakes!

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LESLEE33 2/3/2013 7:27PM

    As long as you keep trying and don't give up, that's all that matters. emoticon emoticon

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SANDYSHORES24 2/3/2013 7:15PM

    I feel the same way about myself and I am close to your age. I wish you the best of luck on your journey to get healthy again. emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 2/3/2013 7:04PM

    Well you know you can do it, you know what has to be done, so that's one step!!! YOU just have to do it, like Nike says Just do it. ( this is for me as much as you!) I have never lost more than 20 lbs.
So off you go........... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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