Sunday, February 03, 2013
I am not happy with the direction my life is headed. I'm currently in school online for a BS in Psychology so I can get a job as a grief counselor for young kids. And the more I think about it, the more I DON'T want to do that for the rest of my life. It's too emotional, too taxing, and I just don't think that the current me is empathetic enough to be in the counseling field. So, I've been doing the classes and just feeling like "this sucks. I'm wasting money and time on something I know I'll never do." Joe and I discussed it and we both think a change would be good for me. He suggested I get a certificate in something that I might enjoy, but when I looked into it I really didn't come across any careers that I'd want to do. And most are in the medical field which 1) has never interested me and 2) I'm not intelligent enough for.
The more I thought about it, the more I kept coming back to my "dream job" which is to someday own a little bakery-cafe. I have wanted this for years and always joked with my parents about it. But now I'm thinking....why not? What's stopping me? So, I looked around online for places nearby in NH where I could hone my baking skills, and there weren't really any. But I came across an online culinary program that really piqued my interest. The school is called Escoffier's and the program is based on the culinary methods of Auguste Escoffier who was a renowed chef. They have a pastry arts program which is what I'm interested in.
I'm really, really considering this. I love to bake and with a little training I think I could really succeed. I'd also like to look into changing my major from Psych to Business Managment (which will be hard for me) because I think it would help in the long run seeing as I have no idea how to run a business. I'm nervous, of course, to fail, because I always fear that, but as Joe mentioned to me when we first discussed me changing direction- what we do now is what matters. We are at a crucial time in our lives and we need to be making the choices that will see us through for maybe not the rest of our lives, but a good portion of them.
My aunt went to the Culinary Institute in Philadelphia for pastry arts many years ago and enjoyed a career in the food industry for 25 years. She managed a bakery in Philadelphia for 11 years when I was younger and I always loved going there. She saw a post of mine mentioning this idea on Facebook and said she thought it would be a good choice. Joe seemed amused but supportive. I've got a lot of planning to do before it becomes reality but I really, really feel like this is what I should be doing with my life.