Sunday, February 03, 2013
I look forward to the day when I can take a picture of myself and NOT automatically check to see if I tilted my head just right to avoid a double chin. Maybe I like portraying this mirage to everyone because I couldn't accept my reality. I've been told since I was younger how beautiful I was...if I lost weight.
I look forward to the day when I can wear a form fitting t-shirt. I will not allow to myself to wear a top that clings to anything except my boobs. I'm very self conscience about that and it's to the point where I can't even suck it in to hide my tummy in a regular fitting shirt.
I also look forward to not wearing anymore empire waist tops after a horrible bra shopping experience. I was looking at some bras on sale and the sales woman (also a plus size girl) told me that they also had maternity bras on sale!!!!! My remark was "I'm fat, not pregnant...THANKS!" Of all people, you would think a fellow big girl would not stoop so low...and no I wasn't glowing - that was sweat.
Finally I look forward jumping into my husband's arms and wrap my legs around him when he returns home from deployment January 2014...i've always seen skinny women do this and I've never been able to.