Sunday, February 03, 2013
I stopped and lost my momentum and motivation so I am putting one foot in front of the other. Did 35 minutes treadmill yesterday and ten minutes (so far) of ST for my arms this afternoon. Definitely feel the benefits of the exercise and "push"... like cleaning out the drains, lol. It's a lovely rush that does help my mood. My knees are sore as are my shoulders from inactivity. Darn arthritis. Will build up again. I am counting carbs today which I'm not used to. Reread some diabetic info and so logged the food. It is ... different... from the plate and counting fiber method but we'll see how I feel. Family decided they were mistaken about my obsession with the scale. A big blow to the ego but part of me does appreciate their concern and keeping an eye on me. I can't say they are encouraging me but I am OK to resume what I was doing with the agreement that I have a doctor's appointment in March to review my food and exercise. My doctor has a diabetic son too so I trust her instincts.
Sucks having a history of an eating disorder and knowing that what is "good for me" can potentially trigger it. I am Diabetic at high risk for stroke and heart attack and have a handful of meds to take every day. I have an artificial knee and one yet to come, and sore shoulders, hands and feet. Best thing is to lose weight, keep active and eat a healthy balanced diet. But I'm humbled too because "dieting" and "excessive exercise" are absolute no's. I think I have been pretty careful these years on SP with the result of slow slow slow but steady weight loss... but admit I have been getting more restrictive with foods and certainly exercising more trying to lose the last pounds to reach onderland and participate in a biggest loser challenge. However I was able to show my family that my foods and exercises were still within very reasonable limits and not excessive compared to the suggestions I first got from the diabetes training and heart and stroke recommendations. I guess when they called me on, even though I felt a little fear that they might be right, it is a relief to feel like I am doing OK. Now I just have to take Baby steps to get back on track and build back my trust that what I'm doing is the right thing. Weigh in once a week only. I am succeeding here on SP and very grateful for all the support.