Sunday, February 03, 2013
I think I'm liking these blog posts based on songs ;) I was listening to my iPod today while I was doing my dishes like a good girl and I'm too Sexy by Right Said Fred came on. If any of you were around in the 90's you would know this song. Anyway, it got me thinking about excuses. I find myself making excuses all the time.
I just had a stressful day at work so I deserve a treat. I deserve a night of laziness because I'm too tired. I deserve a fast food meal because I'm too hungry to wait and cook anything. Apparently I'm "too sexy" to do anything worth while to help accomplish my goals.
What I've really been trying to pin down over the last few weeks was when my thinking started to change back into the old way of thinking. When did I decide that being lazy, overeating, procrastinating was the better option. Basically, when did I start giving up? What was the turning point? I can't say that it started when I hurt my back, because I had reached my lowest weight about 4 months after my back injury. I think it goes back to when I came back from vacation. Bills started rolling in, classes started, and I had seen a life that I wanted to lead but I just didn't know how to go about achieving it. I think I gave up and gave in for fear of failure. Fear of falling flat on my face and not recovering. But isn't that exactly where I'm at right now?
If I stay right where I am and let the fear win and not make any changes, I will never change and become the person I want to be and have the life I do deserve. It's time to embrace the fear and make a change.