Sunday, February 03, 2013
I joined Spark in January 2007. I had been on more diets than I can count. When I joined it was with a new plan.....forget the dieting, I wanted....I needed....to learn healthy.
I can say that I have finally got my food to a place that it feels comfortable. The last 6 months of 2012 was very hard for me...I turned to food a great deal. What I learned however looking back is while I did gain weight and did make a few unhealthy choices...for the most part my choices were healthy and I gained far less weight than I have ever gained before while moving through a difficult time. When it comes to food choices, I feel I have actually learned healthy.
Exercise is where I struggle. I love to walk, hike and swim. I never have to push myself to do any of these activities and walking is something that I do daily. I would love to swim more but unfortunately that is something that is limited to the summer, as basically is hiking. However, putting a DVD in and doing an actual workout....well that is a push. I have succeeded in doing some sort of what I call "extra" workout (lifting weights, yoga, sculpt or cardio dvd) for a maximum of 3 months but I have yet to make it something that I do "willingly" on a regular basis. I always have to push myself....and I am finding that push very difficult these days.
I want to make it a habit, I know I need to make it a habit, and yet it is a constant battle. I am feeling that perhaps I need to look harder at finding things that I truly love to do so that I can let go of the battle and just enjoy.
The one thing that I am proud of is the fact that I haven't given up. I am still searching, I am still determined to live as healthy a life as I am able, and I am proud of all that I have learned so far. My weight might not be where I want it to be but I am a much healthier person than I was back in January 2007.