Sunday, February 03, 2013
HERE I GO AGAIN..."
i have decided to see if i can write all my blogs with naming the blog entry, using song titles, with my mind set at the time. just trying to mix things up a bit... so, with that in mind, i figured that this would be appropriate. have you ever seen the video of this song? yup, i am "80's" girl... (meaning i was a teen in the 80's, and now that is considered "classic music"??? hair bands, CLASSIC music??? eeeks!
i have "started" this journey MANY times. every time i say, "this time will be different"... how will THIS time be different? i always say it is a "life change". will it be? i have let myself down so many times, i barely have faith in myself that i can/will do it. funny thing is, i got the nicest compliment i have gotten in a long time. a co-worker of mine, that never says compliments said, "when tammy puts her mind to losing weight, she is an animal, you can't stop her!" wow, that was so cool, it wasn't coached out of her, i just overheard it! man, i SO want to live up to that rep!
it was a few years ago, that we had a Biggest Loser contest at out work, and i was so flippin' focused, i lost about 35 pounds, and won the contest! and it wasn't just the weight, i was in the best shape in my life! i need to stay focused like that again. but that stupid little voice inside my head keeps repeating all the negatives, "you are older now, it won't come off easy." you don't sleep much, you are always tired, how can you find the energy to work out?" you get one little obstacle and you give up, why bother going through the trouble and disappointment again?"
i gotta do one day at a time, one breath at a time, if necessary. don't concentrate on yesterday or tomorrow, think only of today, right now...
"there are only two days a year nothing can be done, one is called yesterday the other one is called tomorrow. today is the right day to love, believe, do and mostly living." Dalai Lama XIV
by the way, even the star girl in the Whitesnake video gained weight and was on a celebrity weight lose show... we all can start again...
so, here i go again... :)
here is the youtube video...