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Not having an easy time


Sunday, February 03, 2013

This year so far has been a difficult one to say the least.

My uncle died the end of last year and was buried at the start of the year and although we weren't close it affected me more than I thought it would.
Then just over a week ago my fathers wife died, I had only met the woman twice so barely knew her but her passing bought back lots of feelings about my father, despite lots of of opportunities for him to do so he never kept in contact with me or my siblings and only met 2 of my children, I forgave him a while back but the feelings of resentment, particularly from those of his disinterest in his only grandchildren, still live on.

I started with symptoms of a terrible UTI over 4 weeks ago peeing blood, fever, pain in so many place including where the sun doesn't shine, 4 weeks later despite 2 long term doses of antibiotics and some pretty rough after affects from the second course, I still have an infection and am awaiting the results from the lab sample as to where the treatment will lead next.

I started my new job the day after I started antbiotics feeling dreadful, the whole 4 weeks I have been there I have had either symptoms from the UTI or some pretty dire symptoms from the antibiotics.
I start work early so it is barely light when I get there and nearly dark soon after I get home, I work with computers so as soon as the sun pops up above the building the blinds in the office have to come down, it is like working in a cave at times.

So long story cut short this year so far has been pretty difficult and now to put the cap on it I have gained weight, sooooooooooo feeling pretty sorry for myself at the moment.

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EVILKLOWN 2/9/2013 8:43AM

    Ack - sometimes life hands us crap on a spoon.

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HARPS57 2/9/2013 8:08AM

    SPIFFY IS A TRUE TROOPER AND A VERY GOOD FRIEND OF MINE (ON AN OFF SPARKS) AND I ADMIRE HER IMMENSELY FOR WHAT SHE HAS BEEN PUTTING UP WITH OF LATE.

LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME WHEN YOU FEEL BETTER YOU WILL GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS....REMEMBER ...LITTLE STEPS WILL EVENTUALLY LEAD TO THE TOP.

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MEADSBAY 2/3/2013 1:25PM

    Life surely sux at times.
I am sorry you are going through all this crap right now.
I agree with Baggypants- nurture yourself (in healthy ways) and know that this, too, shall pass.
Rock yourself in the cradle of lovingkindness.
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JASI27 2/3/2013 12:02PM

    Find some books!!!!!! 100 ways to motivate yourself by steve chandler rocks!! Reading and educating myself through this journey has helped me more than anything. It's all a mind game and the key is to stay positive! You can do this!

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JUDITHANNIE 2/3/2013 9:00AM

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BAGGYPANTS5 2/3/2013 5:23AM

    LPoor you, Spiff. I think you have enough to cope with without trying to lose weight. I'll probably be drummed out of SP for saying that! Better to concentrate on super healthy eating especially as antibiotics tend to kill the good things in your body as well as the bad. Loads of fruit and veg, lean meat and above all, fish. I swear by smoked salmon, low cals and healthy oils.
Thinking of you
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QRFCGREEN 2/3/2013 5:07AM

  It is amazing that you have managed to keep going to work, through all that stress and illness. I think typing out what is bothering you is very healthy, at least you are not bottling it up. You are surviving a very tough time, hopefully things will turn a corner for the better soon, hang in there xxx. emoticon

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