Not having an easy time
Sunday, February 03, 2013
This year so far has been a difficult one to say the least.
My uncle died the end of last year and was buried at the start of the year and although we weren't close it affected me more than I thought it would.
Then just over a week ago my fathers wife died, I had only met the woman twice so barely knew her but her passing bought back lots of feelings about my father, despite lots of of opportunities for him to do so he never kept in contact with me or my siblings and only met 2 of my children, I forgave him a while back but the feelings of resentment, particularly from those of his disinterest in his only grandchildren, still live on.
I started with symptoms of a terrible UTI over 4 weeks ago peeing blood, fever, pain in so many place including where the sun doesn't shine, 4 weeks later despite 2 long term doses of antibiotics and some pretty rough after affects from the second course, I still have an infection and am awaiting the results from the lab sample as to where the treatment will lead next.
I started my new job the day after I started antbiotics feeling dreadful, the whole 4 weeks I have been there I have had either symptoms from the UTI or some pretty dire symptoms from the antibiotics.
I start work early so it is barely light when I get there and nearly dark soon after I get home, I work with computers so as soon as the sun pops up above the building the blinds in the office have to come down, it is like working in a cave at times.
So long story cut short this year so far has been pretty difficult and now to put the cap on it I have gained weight, sooooooooooo feeling pretty sorry for myself at the moment.