Saturday, February 02, 2013
Try to imagine how weird I felt when I got on the scale that morning January 31st on a whim and saw that weight loss. I hit 167.5 somehow this week and I'm very excited. That's 4.5 lbs so far for 2013. That's a great January. I'm going to keep this momentum going all throughout February. This is the critical time for me this month. Every year, this is when the relapse happens and I move out. Not this year. This year is mine. I am healthy and balanced like I haven't been for many years. I just need to stay on top of my moods the next few weeks and pay attention to any changes that might take place. I'm already feeling the longer days, their noticeable already. I have been very conscious of maintaining a positive view on events as they unfold and I'm back to regular visits with Larrie. My family is also aware of my effort to stay health and here and I'm glad their house just isn't as inviting as it used to be in years past. However rocky my relationship is with my apartment, this place is still my home. I chose it, I bought it and it's up to me to keep it cozy and positive.
Now that we have past mid-winter I need to get some sage and drive the negativity of the dark winter away. Wait until the heat comes on I need to open the window. Then I'll sage the entire apartment and put the fan in the window and bring in fresh, positive air. Right now it's 23 degrees and snowing out. I had a harsh ride home from Pleasantville tonight. Snow predicted for tomorrow too. Good thing I don't have to go anywhere tomorrow. I have plenty of food around and I don't need anything at the moment.
I didn't realize how late it was getting and I'm actually sleepy. I've solved the radiator problem finally, and I'm not having panic attacks at night, so I just might start to get some regular sleep for once. We'll see if I can get a streak going. I know I need at least 6 good hours of sleep at night. I wouldn't mind trying for more, at one time that is. If I go to bed now, it's almost 11pm, let's see if I can stay asleep until 6am. Yeah right, me sleep that long.