It's been 5 or 6 weeks since I went back to WW and it's going ok. I posted previously about my DH lack of support and that hasn't improved. But I've kept at it, hit some potholes, but have kept on the road.
On a quick side note, I have to share something from my meeting today. During the discussion, it came up my struggle with my husband making faces and remarks about the healthier meals that I'm trying to incorporate into our lives (even the teenager has been complimentary!). So, the leader asks if anyone has any suggestions for me. And, this is so precious, a man from the group said that I should just make 2 meals, 1 in the healthy vein & the other in the not. I laughed on the inside.
At any rate, I have learned a couple of things recently:
1) My biggest challenge will be overcoming my inner voice. I have been so negative to myself for so long, it's automatic. And any little slip I make, becomes catastrophic because my voice tells me "here we go again...that's just like last time...this is why you're always fat". It is so hard to stop & tell the voice to "Shut-up!" But that's my exercise, to stop and convince myself that it's not the end as long as I get right back on track.
One technique I have been incorporating is something I learned from a SP article. At the end of the day, I make a short list of the positive things I did that day. It can be about anything, as long as it was a positive move. I think it is a good exercise, to force myself to reflect back on my day & give myself credit for things I've done. Too often, I (& we) don't give ourselves the credit we deserve.
2) I have to learn to be less efficient. WW has this thing called the ActiveLink and you wear it all day so that it tracks all of your activities. It also creates challenges to get you to increase your activity (that's the point). When you start with it, you wear it for a week where it measures your movement to create a baseline of activity. My baseline came back a big fat 0. I knew I wasn't very active, but a 0? Yikes! I am an accountant, so I am at a desk for 8-9 hours a day. Plus I commute for 1.5 - 2 hours a day. So, I spend a lot of time sitting down. Plus, I am very busy, both at work and at home. to manage these schedules, I've worked to become more efficient, so I wouldn't have to make extra trips or get up & get something more than necessary. That's fine for getting things done, but it is not good for my health. So, I'm trying to make myself make more trips, get up from the desk several times an hour, walk up & down the stairs at work more, etc. Especially important this time of year, when it's harder to get exercise due to the weather and that it's already dark when I get home (& I still have to make dinner, straighten up, help with homework, & get everyone ready for bed). And it's really another retraining for my poor little brain.
All of that said, I believe that I'm making progress in both of these and look forward to continuing on this path. I'm trying to change my life, not just lose weight, so it really is a journey. And I'm incorporating behaviors that I can continue for the rest of my life.