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Saturday, February 02, 2013

Mad at myself today. I binged on carbs again last night. This time, I wasn't even drunk. I was hoping that my monster would go back into its little cage and only rear it's head once a month like he used too long ago now that I'm no longer surrounded by Christmas goodies and not eating at a deficit anymore.

Not the case, I've had to fight down urges about 3 times a week, and it was only a matter of time before one got the better of me. It was like nothing in the world would make me happier than filling a gallon sized bowl of cereal and eating all of it. And that was only the start.

Clearly what I'm currently doing isn't working and I've tried many things in the past. No sugar whatsoever. Allowing myself anything in moderation. They've all led to the same 7-10 day cycle of super binge.

This next week is going to be chaotic- We get days off classes to basically party. I'm not going to drink responsibly (sorry), but I will do my best to eat decently. I'm cooking 3 lbs of chicken in some olive oil tomorrow. And will reheat that with veggies as my meals when not eating out. Then the next week (starting Sunday the 10th) I will be trying something new.

For a while now, I've aiming for about 2,000 calories with 150g protein a day. I'm eating 3 well rounded meals and a nice protein shake after I lift. I'm liking this and its really giving me the chance to try out some cooking skills. But I'm wondering if its not giving me enough freedom?

Maybe that's the reason I binge. Because I just want to be able to eat whatever I want, whenever.

Example: Now I've been saying no to a 300 calorie yogurt and granola parfait because I know I'll be cooking a delicious steak with sweet potatoes and grilled mushrooms and onions in two hours for dinner. Meals like this are A) delicious, B) super healthy, C) kinda high calorie

Not a problem when I plan for them, but now I think I'm going to plan my day as aiming for about 1600 cal with 140g protein. Then I can use 400 cals every single day for whatever the heck I want, whenever I want.

And I don't have to snack every day. Say I don't grab anything beyond an apple Mon and Tues which was worked into my 1600. But then Wednesday rolls along and I want to have 2 sandwiches for lunch and maybe have some actual hot chocolate in the evening so I hit 2800. Not a problem anymore.

I think that's what I need to try. Don't aim to be in range each day. Aim to be under, then give myself more flexibility. Its not like I was depriving myself before, but maybe freedom was the key. Have a calorie range of 1300-2700. not 1800-2200.

My only concern with this new idea is how well it keep/build muscle. Mathematically my weight should stay the same, but I am a little concerned about losing muscle on the days I eat under and then gaining fat on my over days for a bad body recomp so any feedback (especially from guys used to lifting) would be appreciated. I'm currently lifting 4 days a week with a plan that is best summed up as a 3x5 push/pull split.

Lifting this way and eating my big, tasty meals led to some good lean muscle gain back when I was working full time, but I think I need a new system now that I'm back at college and partying with friends.
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  • RUSSELL1960
    "I'm not going to drink responsibly (sorry)."

    I paused and was just silent with you for a long time as I heard you make this statement.

    I don't think I'll say more except to encourage you to examine and think deeply about what you are saying and what this may mean for your life.
    1813 days ago
    "I just want to be able to eat whatever I want, whenever. "

    We all do, Kylar.

    Delaying gratification is something we all have to learn, in order to grow up. It's something I'm still working on, myself.

    In the meantime, I've shared this with you before, but maybe it'll help to see it again:

    "How I minimize binge triggers in my life"


    Good luck in this. It isn't easy, but it's worth figuring out how to stop the pattern.
    1814 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/4/2013 3:30:15 PM
    I really can't help you on the bingeing issue. There are times when I eat over what I should, but not up into the 4000 range. As far as eating under your high range, that is a good plan, I have been trying to do that since I began. If I eat a bit under from one day to the next, it makes up for that one day that I have an extra slice of pizza.

    Either way, just keep working on it, you'll figure it out.
    1815 days ago
    Hey Kylar, First i'm proud of how honest your blogs are. That's a huge step for most people. With the carb binging, I have been doing a lot of research. Carbs have nothing to do with will power. Certain carbs especially carbs that contain wheat triggers a chemical in our brain almost like what drugs do. That's why it's called comfort food. When that feeling goes away, our brains tells our body we need more. It has the same affect on our brain signals as cocaine. Crazy huh?
    Here is a link of a video you might want to watch
    Even if it doesn't change your mind about what you eat at least you will know the reason why this is happening and don't beat your self up. If you don't forgive yourself that usually leads to more binging.
    I know you said that you've been lift training, do you also get any cardio in? or jujitsu still? I'm finding that cardio has stress relieving benefits as well as health benefits. Good luck on your road to figuring some stuff out, I hope some of this helps. Your SP friends are here for you. Keep your head up!
    1816 days ago
    I know binges can be so frustrating. I don't really have any advice. It is good to talk it out. That is how we figure these things out
    1816 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/2/2013 6:42:16 PM
    1816 days ago
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