Saturday, February 02, 2013
Mad at myself today. I binged on carbs again last night. This time, I wasn't even drunk. I was hoping that my monster would go back into its little cage and only rear it's head once a month like he used too long ago now that I'm no longer surrounded by Christmas goodies and not eating at a deficit anymore.
Not the case, I've had to fight down urges about 3 times a week, and it was only a matter of time before one got the better of me. It was like nothing in the world would make me happier than filling a gallon sized bowl of cereal and eating all of it. And that was only the start.
Clearly what I'm currently doing isn't working and I've tried many things in the past. No sugar whatsoever. Allowing myself anything in moderation. They've all led to the same 7-10 day cycle of super binge.
This next week is going to be chaotic- We get days off classes to basically party. I'm not going to drink responsibly (sorry), but I will do my best to eat decently. I'm cooking 3 lbs of chicken in some olive oil tomorrow. And will reheat that with veggies as my meals when not eating out. Then the next week (starting Sunday the 10th) I will be trying something new.
For a while now, I've aiming for about 2,000 calories with 150g protein a day. I'm eating 3 well rounded meals and a nice protein shake after I lift. I'm liking this and its really giving me the chance to try out some cooking skills. But I'm wondering if its not giving me enough freedom?
Maybe that's the reason I binge. Because I just want to be able to eat whatever I want, whenever.
Example: Now I've been saying no to a 300 calorie yogurt and granola parfait because I know I'll be cooking a delicious steak with sweet potatoes and grilled mushrooms and onions in two hours for dinner. Meals like this are A) delicious, B) super healthy, C) kinda high calorie
Not a problem when I plan for them, but now I think I'm going to plan my day as aiming for about 1600 cal with 140g protein. Then I can use 400 cals every single day for whatever the heck I want, whenever I want.
And I don't have to snack every day. Say I don't grab anything beyond an apple Mon and Tues which was worked into my 1600. But then Wednesday rolls along and I want to have 2 sandwiches for lunch and maybe have some actual hot chocolate in the evening so I hit 2800. Not a problem anymore.
I think that's what I need to try. Don't aim to be in range each day. Aim to be under, then give myself more flexibility. Its not like I was depriving myself before, but maybe freedom was the key. Have a calorie range of 1300-2700. not 1800-2200.
My only concern with this new idea is how well it keep/build muscle. Mathematically my weight should stay the same, but I am a little concerned about losing muscle on the days I eat under and then gaining fat on my over days for a bad body recomp so any feedback (especially from guys used to lifting) would be appreciated. I'm currently lifting 4 days a week with a plan that is best summed up as a 3x5 push/pull split.
Lifting this way and eating my big, tasty meals led to some good lean muscle gain back when I was working full time, but I think I need a new system now that I'm back at college and partying with friends.