Saturday, February 02, 2013
But before I answer that existential question...the run details. Some runs you just know are gonna suck before you even head out the door. Today was one of those days. I don't mind running in cool weather, even sorta cold. Today was beyond that. At least there was no precipitation.
Got a good night's sleep last night and rolled out of bed around 9:30 this morning. I knew is was going to be COLD, so I was postponing the run start as long as I could. Finally got the nerve to check the temp around 10am. 28 degrees. Great. It rose all of one degree by 10:30, and I didn't check after that. Forecasted high for today was 42. Great. I don't think it made it.
I had on my long running gear, obviously, and found a fleece jacket to throw over me as I headed out. I do not do well running in a coat, but the first 0.5 mile I was planning as a warm-up walk, so I wanted a coat for that. After the walk I had warmed up some, so I ditched the coat and started off on my run. In retrospect, I should have had a second layer on the bottom, and maybe one on the top too.
Today's wind was not as bad as it has been lately, but it was pretty persistent. Somewhere around mile 8 or 9 I decided I was glad I had ditched the coat. It was still cold, but felt ok. This would change later.
The good news of today is I got the fueling thing figured out. Never felt like I ran out of gas (though I slowed WAY down at the end). I felt like I could go no farther than the 19.5 miles I ended up doing. I don't know how to explain this, but it wasn't a fueling issue - I don't think. I just felt like I was trying to go farther than my built up endurance would allow. If that makes sense.
Now, here I sit. All of my joints hurt. All of my muscles hurt. Every fiber of my being hurts. Now it's time for...WHY???
Why did I sign up for a marathon?? Obviously, I am a moron. Why did I piddle around and NOT lose this extra weight I'm carrying around? Obviously, I am a moron. Why did I start my training program late (one week), and miss too many training runs/walks along the way? Obviously, I am a moron. Why haven't I checked into whether I can back down & do the HM instead of the marathon on March 17th? Obviously, I am a moron. Why am I going to follow my remaining training schedule, which will have me attempting 23 miles 3 weeks from now? Obviously, I am a moron.
Well - that answers that. I think I came up with a mantra on my run today. (No, it doesn't have the word moron in it!) My inner complainer/wimp was whining at me. You know, the usual stuff. 'you can't do this!' 'Your feet (back, ankles, legs, etc) hurt!' 'I'm tired!' And on, and on, and on. My answer to each? 'Whatever...just DO it!'