Saturday, February 02, 2013
Last 2 weeks have been hell. I'm trying hard to not let depression get the best of me. I lost about 5lbs in less than a week and wasn't watching what I ate. I just can't always face eating till I'm about sick with a headache. I've been eating a lot of soup and easy on my tummy things. Not always well balanced. I will keep trying. I miss my best friend as much as my man. One text usually a day saying he's ok just isn't enough. Just when Marissa is leaving for her 2 week AT in Korea and departure date being moved up I need him more than ever. He's always so good about explaining things like the N & S Korea matter. My baby girl could for real be in some danger on this AT. I picked up a volunteer paper at the YMCA yesterday. I think volunteering would be good for me. I need more things to be involved in. If I can just get thru feb & mar with personal property taxes due and tags on the jeep then maybe I'll have enough money to buy gas. I'd love to get to the Y 3x a week instead of 2 or sometimes as the end of the month one or none. I feel like I ramble in my blog but it seems to help putting this down. MMMM this new chai tea with cinnamon is good. I hope the pineapple chamoile is as good.