Saturday, February 02, 2013
I took a long fall, and now its time to dust off my hat and get back on the horse. I wanted to lose weight and but I really didn't want to put the effort in to it and in some ways I still don't want to, but I can admit I am tired of having clothing that dozen't really fit right. So the easy way to fix it would be to buy more clothing, but then there are no health benfits and myself esteem will just keep drifting down that river.
So its the hard way losing weight and toning my body! Its not going to be easy! I am going to get mad at myself and feel like a failure if I make too many body choices, and skip workout or eat to much! But that is ok, I know that there will be ups and downs, its part of life. You have to take the bad with the good and maybe try and learn a lesson that goes with the bad!
I know already that I may not be able to spark everyday which means, keeping a list of foods I eat or just logging in quick to track and update my status. I need figure out a plan for when I go to my boyfriends because he has no internet or even a computer, but he dosen't need one. He is never home!! I know that he is worried about me because I can't see myself though his eyes, and he always telling me "There is more meat on Good Friday" and he can tell that I am not happy with my body!