I'm sure you've heard all the cliches before - nothing works unless you do, be the change you want to see, you can be/do anything if you put your mind to it. I'm starting to see the benefits of believing in myself and my ability to create my own destiny in life.
I know I haven't been on Spark much lately, but I can honestly say it is because the past two months have been a whirlwind of change for me. I quit my first job out of college that I was in for four years. I found a new job, started getting my mental and physical health together, and in a way I had to tear everything down so that I could build it back up again - only this time bigger and better.
Let me paint a picture for you...
A Few Months Ago:
- I had headaches daily
- I was tired, irritable, ill tempered, sludging through my day
- I got up in the dark, around 530 am, took public transportation to my job in the city where I was at my desk by 730am
- I was ridiculously stressed, barely getting lunch breaks, and often working late
- I am a hard worker, but I was giving my all to a job/company that really wasn't interesting to me and definitely wasn't interested IN ME in return
- I was being disrespected, beaten down, hushed up, and loaded with negative crap
- Physical Therapy & Chiro has gotten my headaches to a MUCH more manageable state. I still get them, but they aren't nearly as frequent or severe. I can live my life!
- I'm tired - but now it is because I am LEARNING so much my brain is tired, not my whole body!
- I can wake up later, drive through a beautiful countryside to my office, and have that time to myself.
- I found a new job that seems like a great fit, with good people, at a good company.
- I have much more time to devote to MYSELF, my growth, my career, and my life.
This new job... let me tell you... the grass CAN be greener on the other side! My old company always said they believed in taking care of their employees, but my NEW company actually DOES. In fact, we just made the list of Baltimore's Top 25 Employers. Every firm/job has its own frustrations, and none are entirely perfect, but here are some of the things that I am happy about so far:
- They make an effort to make sure we're making efforts to be healthy. They give everyone a pedometer and you can track your steps. The more steps you take, the more money my company contributes to your health spending account. Pretty much everyone wears this pedometer, and I've even overheard people in the hallway comparing their step counts and talking about what they will be doing to get more. I learned last week that there is a marked one mile walking trail outside of our office, and that people have measured how many "loops" of our internal hallways equals a mile (for those bad weather days!) There is a 24/7 gym in our building that was bigger than the one at my old company that served more people. I was also told that they bring dogs from the humane society over for us to walk sometimes, which gets people outside AND we get to play with dogs. How cool is that?!?!?!
- My job is only 7 hrs/day and we get a lunch break. Since my team is somewhat based on the west coast, most of my day doesn't start until closer to 10. I know there will be nights where I have to work late, but I am loving having a calmer morning where I can make myself a REAL breakfast. I'm also planning on using that morning time for the GYM. That way if I do end up staying late, I will already be done!
- We have a cafeteria that focuses on eating healthy. The centerpiece is a color coded salad bar. Each color means something different. Green = you can eat however much you want, yellow = not too much, red = moderation/not every day (like bacon hah!) Last week we had an variety of healthier specialty meals. I'm still planning on packing my lunches and snacks, but it is good to know that I have a HEALTHY choice right downstairs if I need it!
- This job is INTERESTING to me. I'm almost sad to admit that I have learned more about the business at this new job in two weeks than I ever did at my old job. Everyone has been so helpful, roles and responsibilities seem much more clearly defined, and they have really invested in the technology/data/applications to make things easier and more transparent. Even better - I can already see that I have alot to offer my new team and company. I am EXCITED and feeling so motivated. They seem so willing to hear my opinions and suggestions. I have already gotten really positive feedback. My confidence was constantly being torn down at my old job because other people needed to feel better about themselves, and here it seems that everyone just wants to help things get better. Yes!
I know someday down the road I am going to be like "Oh I am so busy, I am stressed, somebody pissed me off, I had a hard day" but I really do believe that stuff is easier to bear when you haven't started your day off in the dark, commuting to and from work in a dirty train in a dark tunnel, encouraged to get up and about and eat right, paid more, and respected. I have decided to start weaning myself off some meds, and with my physical therapist's permission, kick my exercise back up into higher gear.
My brain is just exploding with ideas right now and I want to harness some of this positive energy for my fitness especially. Hopefully the groundhog was right and we'll see springtime soon so that I can keep adding to this fire. Let's gooooooooooooo!
(See - isn't this a much nicer way to go to and from work? I love it!)
ALSO - GO RAVENSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!! I am so so so so so freaking excited!!!!!!!!!!!