Saturday, February 02, 2013
What will I choose?
Thatís really what it boils down to for me. Excuses, rationalizing, whining to myselfÖsure, I continue doing it, I havenít broken that habit completely, but I have gotten to the point of eventually getting sick of listening to myself. I eventually shut myself up by giving myself a choice. Do I sit, whine, and give up, which in turn means Ė go back to bad habits, being a big, unhealthy, and unhappy person? OR do I suck it up, keep pushing through (as hard as it is and as discouraged as I get sometimes), and know that the results will eventually come. I always choose option two. I have finally learned that this really is a choice, a choice I make with my MIND. As hard a choice as it can be sometimes, it still just boils down to a choiceÖ, after another choice, after another choice. Yep, they add up.
So, Iím down .8 this week. Iím glad the scale has moved, but I do get discouraged that I havenít seen the nice losses that I used to see. I attribute this to the fact that itís the dead of winter here in Massachusetts, and I HATE the cold, so Iím not getting in my runs as frequently. Additionally, because of the aforementioned AND the fact that I am getting closer to my goal weight, the calorie deficit is not as large, nor CAN it be as I get closer to my goal if I want to stay healthy and happy Ė and boy do I get grumpy when Iím hungry. So, Iím making the choice today to be satisfied that I have had a loss. Iíll make a choice later on to get out for a run in this icky cold weather. Iíll make another choice to order a light dinner when we go out for dinner tonight.
I make my choice again and again. I do not want to go back to where I was. I am choosing the path to success. It isnít easy. Those excuses and the rationalizing and the whiningÖoooh, theyíre powerful. But once you get real with yourself and make that honest choice for yourself, in a way, it is easy, almost liberating. Choice one will lead you to path A. Choice two will lead you to path B. Simplistic? Perhaps. But it works for me.